im a prisoner of my thoughts

[sheeuh_pet]

so its nearing 5 am. i tried to go to sleep almost 2 hours ago. ive been in a funk for like 2 days. im just sad about my life and really down on myself. i feel like i am not myself right now. wait scratch that, im not myself. i feel like i am trapped and cant do what was my life. softball, high school, work, the beach, living at home, simple

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[x_dork_x]

i couldn't have said it better myself.
i'm right there with you.
but hopefully we'll get out of this phase soon.
..and i dont go home til thanksgiving because we dont have fall break.
but i hope your week gets better
love you.

[woeoariel]

yo for real, i'm feeling a lot of the same things. It's pretty hard to cope with at times, but i think it's just something everyone goes through when they go out on their own. You're basically establishing an entire new life, and it's something we've never done before. For the 18 years of our lives everything has been decided for us for the most part. Now, these decisions of what to do, how to do it, who to do it with are all in our own hands and that fact alone is enough to make me shit my pants that's for sure.

[stellarchild]

simple hobbies i used to love are no longer defining me. so im having this major crisis of who i am. i always thought i knew. well i still am the same person who razor scooters around, i have just lost my security of who i am. i always felt like i was motivated and successful. i feel mediocre here and just another face in the crowd. i feel somewhat awkward in situations that never troubled me before. it is understandable, im in hardcore transition right now. im bored, i want to go out and get involved in some things, but i cant find the initiative to go and actually get into things. i dont have anyone to push me into it and dont have my typical friends to go in with me. so with all this down time i get to think about how amazingly happy i was at home.

DITTO DITTO DITTO

shea, would she hang out sometime, like actually hang out instead of just running into each other everywhere.

and :/ about the boy thing. im having a similar thing with the trying to like but not really. i dont know. we should have a coffee date.

[sheeuh_pet]

lets you have my number just give me a call

[sheeuh_pet]

im glad im not the only one feeling like this and i could hit home with some of you guys. i didnt finally fall asleep until 7 and i just got out of bed cuz i just had no motivation. but since i wrote everything out im moving out of this stage immediately. who knows. love you guys!

[lean_on_me_]

i understand your thoughts. there are so many people around you that it's hard to stand out. it's like you have try 20 times harder to be someone in college. i think it will all come in time. the key, it seems to me, is to start small and work your way up.

i love you and miss you.