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Baaah, I feel so lonely and sad and wibbly tonight. I was gonna go write prettythings about someone who asked me to, but I can't cause it'll make me cry. And it makes no sense, since Tinna was here tonight and she *just* left. My mom asked me if she was going to stay over tonight. And I'm like "uhm... no, why would she?" and then I realises that it wasn't such a silly question to ask, as she's been staying over a lot lately, and when she doesn't, we spend around 18 hours a day together anyway, either here, at her place, or at school. Being "forced" to work with someone on everything, since you go to all the same classes - not so good. But when that someone is one of your bestest friends in the whole world, and they're smart and easy-going and easy to be around and work with in general - much, much better. Then throw a random, weird, know-it-all-type girl who insists on being the boss into the mix... bleh. Gotta go work on a report with the two of them tomorrow. Not really looking forward to it. And don't get me wrong - I really like this other girl. It's just... I don't like working with her. We don't balance eachother out, and we're not alike in any way, and it's just... bleh. I hate "fighting" when I'm doing schoolwork, and when I'm working with her, that's what always happens (and I am SO the walk-all-over-me type, so this surprises me). I wish it was just me and Tinna, that would be fabulous. Things are just sort of... calm and easy when I work with her. I like that.
Ramble ramble.
Almost beating the lonely feeling. Even though I know it's all fake, since I'm talking to a computer, for god's sake. And talking with people on IM programs does nothing for me any more. Neither do phonecalls. I need someone to be right next to me, so that I can see them and hear them and fel them, if I want to.
My Svava comes home in THREE DAYS. I get to see her in four... ohmygod I'm so excited I miss her SO MUCH! Haven't seen her since... the beginning of May! And she's staying in Iceland for almost a month! Happyhappyhappy!
My dad found condoms in my bedroom. They're mine - but I didn't know I had them. Heeeh.
And my mom's all weird and starting to freak me out again. That's not good, no no no. I'm hoping it's just the past few days have been strange and then it'll all go away cause damnit, I refuse to deal with things.
My sisters are crazy in general, but what else is new. There's noone else I can fight with 30 times a day, then get way excited about random crazy things like goldfish named Mango and cute pink things and weird people on TV. I truly think that out of all the good people in my life, my sisters are the best. Usually, anyway. Not when they "remember" to act their age again (14, sadly), cause then we can't be friends.
Mmm. Offtobed. Although lately, I've been having trouble sleeping again and it's killing me. I'm not falling asleep until like 5 am, and so I sleep all day and don't go to classes. Doesn't really matter now, there's just a few days left anyway.
Stupid needing to sleep. When I worked at Maríuborg, I once averaged like 2 hours sleep a night for almost 6 weeks. I wasn't rally functioning right for most of that time, plus I was working overtime every single day. Then I just started being able to sleep again all of a sudden. Maybe I should go see a doctor? Surely, this is not normal. It's not even stress, I think, cause there was absolutely no stress whatsoever on me back then. Plenty of it now, though.
Now shutup, Auður.
Ramble ramble.
Almost beating the lonely feeling. Even though I know it's all fake, since I'm talking to a computer, for god's sake. And talking with people on IM programs does nothing for me any more. Neither do phonecalls. I need someone to be right next to me, so that I can see them and hear them and fel them, if I want to.
My Svava comes home in THREE DAYS. I get to see her in four... ohmygod I'm so excited I miss her SO MUCH! Haven't seen her since... the beginning of May! And she's staying in Iceland for almost a month! Happyhappyhappy!
My dad found condoms in my bedroom. They're mine - but I didn't know I had them. Heeeh.
And my mom's all weird and starting to freak me out again. That's not good, no no no. I'm hoping it's just the past few days have been strange and then it'll all go away cause damnit, I refuse to deal with things.
My sisters are crazy in general, but what else is new. There's noone else I can fight with 30 times a day, then get way excited about random crazy things like goldfish named Mango and cute pink things and weird people on TV. I truly think that out of all the good people in my life, my sisters are the best. Usually, anyway. Not when they "remember" to act their age again (14, sadly), cause then we can't be friends.
Mmm. Offtobed. Although lately, I've been having trouble sleeping again and it's killing me. I'm not falling asleep until like 5 am, and so I sleep all day and don't go to classes. Doesn't really matter now, there's just a few days left anyway.
Stupid needing to sleep. When I worked at Maríuborg, I once averaged like 2 hours sleep a night for almost 6 weeks. I wasn't rally functioning right for most of that time, plus I was working overtime every single day. Then I just started being able to sleep again all of a sudden. Maybe I should go see a doctor? Surely, this is not normal. It's not even stress, I think, cause there was absolutely no stress whatsoever on me back then. Plenty of it now, though.
Now shutup, Auður.