Why?
Why do I even try? I try so hard to be nice. I truly do. All that happens is I get stabbed in the back. I wish they wouldn't hurt me. I wish they wouldn't take adantage of me. I don't want to hurt other's feelings so I don't like to say anything and they take advantage of me. And then the few times I have backbone to say something to attempt to stand up for myself, I end up hurting others. I wish I was good with words and could simply express my opinion without it coming out harsh. Simply put, I'm terrible words, either too shy or I just merely don't posses the talents to actually express my feelings. Both of those, shyness and inability, have reared their heads more times than I can even count. And I like to think I can count pretty high. Maybe not. Who knows. I sure don't know.
Ok. And another question I have been trying to figure out. How can I be a lady on this planet? I've determined it's impossible. I attempted to be a lady. Failed miserably. I can't be a lady here without getting stabbed in the heart. I'm tired of taking bruises. My heart hasn't been broken. Yet. But it most definately has been bruised and stabbed a few times. I don't want another bullet through the chest. I have to stand up for myself. I'm to weak and wimpy to even do that. I'm sick of being hurt and stabbed in the back and the heart. Sometimes at the same time. I tried to act like a lady should and all they do is use that to their advantage.
Perhaps if I was better 'lady' then I wouldn't have these problems. I don't know. The only woman I know who even comes close to being a lady is my mom. She's not perfect. I've seen her make mistakes. But i would be delighted to become half the woman she is. I don't think that'l happen though. I've no strength.
In my opinion the qualities of a lady are;
Never lies
Stands up for what she believes
Insists on the best
Refuses to take part in anything that is immoral
Walks out when others can't behave
Will not smile or encourage wrong behavior in any way
Shows grace and poise in every aspect of her life
Is Godly
Possesses a sweet nature
Is beautiful
Never, ever speaks about anyone behind their backs
Honest
Loving
Patient
Compassionate
Filled with God-given joy
Always Faithful, not only to God, but to her friends and family, and even those she doesn't really know
Never let's anyone down
Hah! I'm such a loser. I'll add more qualities of a lady to this post as I think of them. I'm such a failure, I don't even come close.
Yeah...lol. I really have no idea where I am going with this blog. Just random thoughts thrown out.
Ok. And another question I have been trying to figure out. How can I be a lady on this planet? I've determined it's impossible. I attempted to be a lady. Failed miserably. I can't be a lady here without getting stabbed in the heart. I'm tired of taking bruises. My heart hasn't been broken. Yet. But it most definately has been bruised and stabbed a few times. I don't want another bullet through the chest. I have to stand up for myself. I'm to weak and wimpy to even do that. I'm sick of being hurt and stabbed in the back and the heart. Sometimes at the same time. I tried to act like a lady should and all they do is use that to their advantage.
Perhaps if I was better 'lady' then I wouldn't have these problems. I don't know. The only woman I know who even comes close to being a lady is my mom. She's not perfect. I've seen her make mistakes. But i would be delighted to become half the woman she is. I don't think that'l happen though. I've no strength.
In my opinion the qualities of a lady are;
Never lies
Stands up for what she believes
Insists on the best
Refuses to take part in anything that is immoral
Walks out when others can't behave
Will not smile or encourage wrong behavior in any way
Shows grace and poise in every aspect of her life
Is Godly
Possesses a sweet nature
Is beautiful
Never, ever speaks about anyone behind their backs
Honest
Loving
Patient
Compassionate
Filled with God-given joy
Always Faithful, not only to God, but to her friends and family, and even those she doesn't really know
Never let's anyone down
Hah! I'm such a loser. I'll add more qualities of a lady to this post as I think of them. I'm such a failure, I don't even come close.
Yeah...lol. I really have no idea where I am going with this blog. Just random thoughts thrown out.