life scares me to death.

Apr 17, 2004 23:29

[disclaimer: this is not a cry for attention. i am *not* going to kill myself. i repeat, i am *not* going to kill myself ( Read more... )

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bartok April 17 2004, 06:25:08 UTC
Hi, I was doing some LJ searches and thought I'd say hi. Might be moving to Auckland soon. I know the pain of losing pot access, surprisingly not the easiest thing to get a line on at times. Hope things feel better for you soon.

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my dearest sheeple love, grey_like_stars April 17 2004, 07:56:54 UTC
<< and really frustrated. like, i *really* want to break something, or punch something. i don't know why. >>

go buy some cheap light bulbs at the dollar store and break the fuck out of them. stomp on them, throw them at walls. that's what i do when i need to break something. that, or i get my friend mike to come over and he lets me beat him up. ::nods::

<< (and although you've probably guessed by now, yes, i was at least partially responsible for it) >>

it's okay, i'm partially responsible for the murder of my closest friend. iono about the rest of the normal world, but amongst my friends, these sorts of things happen.

<< i could get a job, i suppose, if only i could fucking *do* anything. 'cause i can't, really. i have no skills. get an entry level position in a call center. make sure you're doing inbound calls only because if you get a job at an outbound call center, you're doing telemarketing, and that's the devil. call centers, at least here, pay really quite well for just a day-to-day sort of job, and they train you. all you ( ... )

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aubreyblack April 17 2004, 21:10:53 UTC
You know, I *want* you to go for that "holiday" at your parents house because I want to be able to spend some time with you and talk to you about stuff. Not that I can actually do much to change things, but still. It's hard sometimes when I come to see you - I love hanging out with you and I love seeing Dylan, too, but it's hard to talk to you when he's around sometimes. I feel like I by the time I have to leave, I sometimes haven't really managed to connect with you, do you know what I mean? I feel like I see you so rarely that when I *do* see you I want to talk and talk and talk about stuff with you, and sometimes I get to, and sometimes I don't. I always feel like I'm cheating you out of a quality visit when I don't! =^P But when I do it's always really good, even if the stuff we're talking about isn't the most cheerful or optimistic. I still have some of the best conversations with you. I know with you that when we get talking, we'll always be talking *about* something that matters ( ... )

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herdivineshadow April 18 2004, 08:22:21 UTC
okay, that's it. time's up - my concentration's gone and i've started fidgeting.

Your concentration isn't that bad... I mean, you've written way stuff just now thats more vaguely coherant in one lj entry that I do in the space of 10.

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elegia_xo April 19 2004, 03:54:36 UTC
dude... i know this won't really make any difference, and i know it sounds stupid, but i just want to tell you that i love you ( ... )

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