Anywhere I Would've Followed You
I'm Sorry That I Couldn't Get To You
As always, for Chad.
I am building now.
On these foundations
However ruined and old.
The roots are planted,
And deep, on good soil,
Tended so carefully.
However unfathomable
These steps have become.
When I thought moving forward,
Was a luxury I could never afford.
Something I could have
Never done.
Even for all the love that I bear.
It's these memories,
Like a hand on something too frail.
At first touch, I would unravel.
Even knowing how I coveted this ghost
I would laugh around my crumbling heart.
Trembling as I remembered our,
Absolute happiness
Our total understanding.
I feel anchored by grief,
Unable to be moved.
The weight of my heart
Was almost an embrace.
It kept me close to you.
The reality of this vastness,
This void that transcends all the years,
Will always be too much to bear.
Still, I am strong.
Not stronger than this,
But enough to fight.
Even as my feet slide,
And my arms tire.
My soul has fled along with yours.
And I will never know
A deeper loss.