I wish its a new year...
For the first time as far as I can recall, my body physically reacted to something it could not tolerate. I have an allergy. To what it is, is still a mystery, all I know is that I look like a walking connect-the-dots creature. I haven't been feeling well for the past few days, or months if you want to be accurate. I miss my friends from my previous work, I miss the more simple times of the past year. I really screwed up, and that's putting it mildly. I've somehow lost belief in everything I felt was my personal quest. And I can't channel my anger to anything or anyone but myself. I know that somehow all these blues will pass and I'll get through, but I just can't help but wish I could feel better thinking that. I just want all these to stop. All the thoughts, all the what-might-have-beens, all the promises broken, all the dreams somehow dashed away by the glaring light of reality.