I miss you so fucking much, this is too fucking hard..

[she_chokes]

it brought tears to my eyes.
the moment you stepped out of your anonymity.
I hate going here.
God I feel so inadequate, so worn, so ugly.
what is it about her that makes you not want me?
What is it about me that makes you not want me?

I am a worthless piece of shit to do what I did. To give up someone I love so much.
It's times like these when your absence consumes me, when I hate myself so much. There's always times like these.
I apologize, it's the best I can do.
I'm fucking pathetic.