make em scream and shout

[shaynabelle]

I'm doing a comparison between Apple, Dell and Microsoft. I've got pages and pages of financial records for the past 5 years and I'm sorting through them. I am ill-equipped for this. I am near tears with frustration. I am grappling with unfamiliar terms and I am drinking wine and it is difficult

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[brennarella]

No, totally, you're way too cheerful and positive sometimes, and you do need to be able to express the negativity OUTSIDE of your brain. What I worry about is using words like "obese" and "revolting". I understand how scary and frustrating this weight issue is, and I'm very concerned, but I guess I don't understand why it's more than just a health concern. And I also don't really understand why you want to be "small". It must be extremely frustrating to put as much effort as you do into your weight and not be rewarded. That I can kinda understand. What I don't really understand is why all the effort in the first place. Gaining 6lbs that quickly for no reason is scary, definitely. So maybe it's easier to think about it as frustrating and depressing than as a scary thing?

I guess the big question is, I've always seen you swing from negative to positive, without stopping much in between. It's OK to have less than noble feelings. It's OK to admit you just feel like crap. You don't have to come back today and go "NO, really! I'm fine! I love school! I love me! Really!"

It's good to vent, but I wish it were directed more outwards, not inwards. Get angry at the sheets for being confusing, get angry at the prof for not explaining it enough, get angry at your stupid hormones for screwin around with you, get angry at the world for wanting all of us to be the same shape and size and perfect. It's ok to be a bit negative. Maybe if you let yourself be more negative when you're in a good mood, it won't overwhelm you when you're not?