Fuck you, Depression!
Again I'm going down this dark tunnel of self hate and deep sadness. I really hate that I can't keep the tears out of my eye and that I have to try to hide the sadness in my voice when I answer the phone here at work. I'm so sick of being on this endless cycle of sadness and hope that leads to nothing.
I hate my life. Pure and simple. It's horrible. Nothing goes right for me. I never get anything that I want. I am not happy. I don't feel like anyone loves me. It's horrible. I would not wish feeling like this on anyone.
Every decision I make ends in fail. Why can't I just do something right for a change? I can't lose weight and keep it off. I can't make good friends. I can't get a boyfriend. I can't get a good job. Nothing at all works for me. I'm just a fuck up and a disappointment. Always have been and always will be. I did have hope that this year would be better, but who am I fooling? It will be more of the same.
I hate that I still live with my mother. I hate that I don't have a life. I hate just really hate every single thing about being me.
I hate my life. Pure and simple. It's horrible. Nothing goes right for me. I never get anything that I want. I am not happy. I don't feel like anyone loves me. It's horrible. I would not wish feeling like this on anyone.
Every decision I make ends in fail. Why can't I just do something right for a change? I can't lose weight and keep it off. I can't make good friends. I can't get a boyfriend. I can't get a good job. Nothing at all works for me. I'm just a fuck up and a disappointment. Always have been and always will be. I did have hope that this year would be better, but who am I fooling? It will be more of the same.
I hate that I still live with my mother. I hate that I don't have a life. I hate just really hate every single thing about being me.