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WOW WOW WOW. Does anyone seriously read or use these journal thingys anymore? I was just laying in bed and i randomly thought bout my livejournal..who does that? I'm bored and can't sleep anyway so why not write bout my life and update...knowing no one reads this lmao. Well, picking up kinda where the last post was about...I went to Eastern Michigan for a year and joined the sorority. I ended up HATING IT toward the end, the girls ended up being the bitchy most two faced cunts I ever met, it was worse then high school and they were suppose to be my "sisters" riiiight. I think me living at home was a part of it, i felt left out a lot of the time but oh well its not elementary school I'm over it. At the end of the year I was doing HORRIBLE in school so I decided to leave and trans to Monroe County Community College. I'm sure if i metioned that I got kicked out of my moms house in canton in feb. and ended up at my dads house in newport....with dumb ass rules and annoying step parent and brother. So all summer I partied HARDDD in canada with my sweet ass fake ID because I was only 18 still. haha. August comes and I was dating my childhood sweetheart, I mentioned him in another post bout visting him in the hospital, his name is Jake and he lived in Tennessee. Near the end of august I ended up totalling my barely used honda civic *tear*. I was at an intersection and I started to go thru and a guy head me on the front passenger side at 70mph. I am very blessed to be alive today. That was SOOO tramaic. So after that I couldn't go to work because no car, I was so upset I decided to withdraw from monroe community and sat on my ass. It got old after a week or so and insurance was takin WAYYY to long send my new car money, I left for tennessee for almost a month to be with Jake..my love..so I thought. I was there seriously 3 days and he already had dumped my ass...LMAO. He said I was too much of a bitch and didn't remember me being like that and how can someone be so sweet and then turn so bitchy. So I was a WRECK! I was crying and just omg omg. Because I thought we were really gonna get married someday we had been so tight for SO long, oh well things dont work out for a reason I guess. I came back to Michigan and finally got a car and started hanging out with this guy named Anthony from garden city. I REALLY liked his ass, we had EVERYTHING in common too, our birthdays were even one day apart and we were born in the same hospital and he went to middle school with all the same people I went to elementary school with...because I moved to canton after elementary so I just missed him. I thought that was just too weird so we started "talking" and hanging out A LOT. His best friend named brian was dating this girl named megan, who ended up being one of my really good friends now. Meg and I ended up leaving the boys and stopped talking to them. This was november by now, well on November 12, 2007...I met the love of my life and future husband =) See, meg went to high school in dexter but live in ann arbor so she still went to dexter a lot. One day she begged me to come out to her friend Dave's birthday party because anthony and I had just stopped talking, he already had a girlfriend and I was depressed. Megans plan was for Dave and I to hook up, he was turning 20 let me add. So, I get to the party and I said hi to this dave kid and that was it, he was drunk so I flirted and talked to everyone blahblah it was fun. I met dave's mom and sister everything and never thought bout it again. Weeks pass here and there and at some parties at different places I came across dave again, we say hey whatever. Not really talking. Well for some odd reason everytime I was with megan and dave would call to chill and see what she was up too or who she was with if we wanted to go to the bar or club, I had butterflies! I had butterflies about a guy I never even had a real convo with. How weird am I? My feeling really started to come when we were all at the stripclub and he couldn't keep his eyes off ME! I just looked at him and it was just the weirdest feeling ever. I liked him A LOT. Well, megan may of known or not I never said a thing but after those few times of hanging out we never hung out again, and megan would make sure of it. But see dave was SMART, the last night I saw him he got my number. Here came middle to end of december, I started dating this DOUCHE BAG named brian from belleville, what a trash bag. See I didn't really like him that much, I just wanted a boyfriend and he was alright in bed so I just stayed but I was so sick of him after like the first week lol. During that dating period dave called from about twice to hang out and party it up but I was living in newport and dexter is a long ass drive so I just never went out there because megan and I weren't that close anymore either, I had no reason too. End of Jan, I came down with mono, WOOHOO and was sicker then a fucking dog. Brian and I were together but didn't see each other so one day was so sick of his shit and having a phone relationship because he wouldn't come see me I changed all my shit online to single and he saw it and texted me its over, hes stupid I already left the relationship faggot. I got better at the end of feb, FINALLY. Beginning march my life changed a lot, Ashleigh got kicked out of her house and wanted to move into an apartment so I was HELLLLL YEAH! So on march 9th we moved in canton club east, YES! no parents, no rules, no more drives back n forth to newport and killin my gas...back to canton my home so I thought. Dave randomly called the night we all moved in with a new cell phone number and i metioned hey I got an apartment come out and party sometime...I thought hey why not? I still kinda had a lil slow spot for his ass. And there it was...every weekend dave was out at my apartment and even sometimes during the week and he would sometime stay 2 days. and NO we werent fucking, we didn't even kiss, we didn't even let it be known that we liked each other, he was just a good friend who happened to sleep in my bed at night...NOT TOUCHING EACH OTHER. lol. After a while I was like OMG i like him, I wanna date him, like I'm ready for a serious relationship with him! Everything bout him was perfect!!!! I texted him one night kinda asking like whats gonna happen with us, and basically said he was scared that I would get bored of him because I do get bored easily but I couldn't see myself getting bored with him AT ALL. And I tried to explain that and he just came back with " I rather keep a friendship then risk losing a relationship " he says he knew if we didn't work out as a couple then we prolly wouldn't talk again and he didn't want that, he wanted something with me even if it was just a friendship. I was PISSED SAD SO UPSET I CRIED EVERYTHING. I thought I was FOR ONCE gonna have a nice awesome hott boyfriend, so all I sent back in a text was " I have nothing to say to you " and I went to bed. Nothing back, nothing in the morning, I said FUCK IT, in my head I was done being friends with him as well. The next day after that shit, he texted me at like 5pm and asked what I was doing that night (it was friday April 6th my half birthday) I said prolly partying at the apartment, he said I'm coming out, I said whatever. So that night, I was going to make sure he felt bad and dumb for basically letting me and not takin a chance on me even tho he said I was worth the chance...I got a sweet ass outfit and did my hair and when I came out of bedroom and he was my couch...you could tell he was like DAMN IM DUMB. Well we ended up playing a drinking game and I was being a bitch and give dave every card I could and got him drunk ass fuck. Some how we were the only ones outside smoking a cig at some point half midnight and he was like listen we need to talk and I was like your drunk you don't want anything with me its fine its fine its fine. That was my phrase to him during the whole convo...ITS FINE. And I knew damn well it wasn't fine, I was hurt. He tried to explain what he meant blahblah. He finally said Ashley, if you want me to ask you out, stand up because I was on the ground and I was like what? no? your drunk! and he picked me up and asked me and I said no. LMAO. OMG I'm stupid now right? He asked me once again and I said no, ask me when your sober. We went into my bedroom later on and I was thinking bout it and I was like HELLO ASHLEY YOU WANT HIM, STOP PLAYING A 2 YEAR OLD GAME AND SAY YES DUMB ASS! So I turned to him on my bed and I said ask me again...and he asked and I said YES! and there we go. We were inserpable that night and we still are til this day. April 7, 2007.. perfect. Daves fav number is 7. How cute! We saw each other a lot he came over, I drove to dexter and met his fam and hung out a lot. Well, May comes and Ashleigh and My friendship was just SHIT. We didn't talk, she acted like she didn't want me around the apartment, left me out of girl nights, basically JEALOUS that I had a sweet boyfriend and she didn't sorry hoe! I packed ALL my shit and dave came and helped me and I moved to Hell, michigan with my cousin amanda and her boyfriend and 2 kids...to the basement haha. And it was GREAT because I was only 10 mins away from dave instead of fucking 35mins. From that night on we never slept without each other. He went home to shower and change clothes and he was with me. Our relationship would prolly make anyone throw up its sicking how in love we are. I live at my cousin for about month and on June 9th Dave and I moved into our own apartment in downtown dexter where we currently live right now. Living with a boyfriend is the best thing in the world...I couldn't have been more happy. I can't see myself ever living a day without him. He is my best friend, lover, soulmate everything in this world to me. Its just so random how we met and how we got this far and its only been 3 and a half months of dating and already living together and so in love. We talk bout gettin married and kids and the future and hes not afraid of possibly spending the rest of his life with me. And I couldn't ask for more. After all my problems in life with boys, I'm so happy no other relationships worked even tho at the time I thought they should of because I wouldn't of met dave otherwise. I love him with all my heart. Wow I am so sicking eh? Thats my life up to date. Daves in bed sleeping and sittin on the laptop ...BORED lol. Another day tomorrow...I'll try to write more often we'll see. One more thing, Shhhh no one knows yet but, theres a little one on the way =)