I got some pretty important news on Tuesday
I got the date of my operation in the post on Tuesday. Friday 17th October.
Unfortunately, it collides with my appointment for an MRI Brain scan that was planned for that day and it was something that had a sense of urgency for me because it's a way of ruling out a cause of my problems with my balance and such.
When mum told me that I had received the date I was feeling ok kind of. She then said that it clashes with something and told me to guess. Instantly I thought of mum's birthday and around Christmas time.
When mum said that it was for the 17th of this month, my reaction was to walk away saying No No Nope Nope No Not Happening.
I have to admit that I'm terrified about it so I'm dealing with it by just ignoring it and pretending that it hasn't happened.
Excuse my language but it's going to be a fucking massive change for me and it's something that's going to completely shit all over the routines and the "counters" I'm already used to and settled with.
me and change don't get along very well so this will be a struggle.