Soba ni Ite - Part Seven
Title: Soba ni Ite
Author: Shattered Tenshi
Rating: NC-17
Fandom: JE
Genre: AU, Romance
Pairing: Yokoo Wataru x Fujigaya Taisuke, Kitayama Hiromitsu x Fujigaya Taisuke
Warnings: //points at rating// Possible dub-con, depending on how you read it.
Part One | Part Two | Part Three | Part Four | Part Five | Part Six
Soba ni Ite
By Shattered Tenshi
Part Seven
Taisuke whimpered when Yokoo sucked on a patch of skin on his neck. "W-Wataru-sama...Hiromitsu-sama and I...really didn't do any more than kissing and touching...!"
"Don't lie to me," Wataru said in a low voice. "These marks don't look like nothing to me."
Looking at Wataru with confused eyes, Taisuke then shook his head. "We really didn't..."
Wataru cupped Taisuke's cheek with his hand. "Why'd you let Hiro touch you, Tai-chan? I thought, if I wasn't there..."
Taisuke shook his head again, not knowing what to say. What was Wataru implying? That he really liked Wataru more after all and that Wataru know about this? He didn't understand the reason behind Wataru's actions at all.
Too lost in his own thoughts, Taisuke barely noticed Wataru undoing his obi and pushing open his hakama. He let out a sharp gasp when he felt Wataru tying his wrists together above his head. "W-Wataru-sama...?"
"Don't run away from me," Wataru murmured as he tied a knot. He had used the white strip of fabric that was used to tie together the hakama underneath the thicker obi.
"I..." Taisuke was a little stiff underneath Wataru. There was something different about Wataru tonight, or had the other acted weirdly even earlier? Why? Taisuke didn't understand.
Wataru sat up a little and looked down at Taisuke, tracing down Taisuke's neck using his finger. "Tell me. What did you and Hiro do?"
Taisuke squirmed and turned his head away, but didn't do anymore than that. Even though Wataru had tied his wrists together, he still wouldn't push Wataru away. Was Hiromitsu right after all?
"I'm going to make my own assumptions if you don’t say anything, Tai-chan." Wataru bent down and breathed into Taisuke's ear. "If you two really didn't do anything, then tell me what exactly you did do then."
Resisting the urge to shiver, Taisuke glanced at Wataru. "We...we just kissed, Wataru-sama."
Wataru shook his head as he caressed Taisuke's neck gently. "You're bad at lying, Tai-chan. Kissing wasn't the only thing, right?" He then touched one of the marks on Taisuke's skin.
A small whimper slipping from his lips, Taisuke finally whispered, "H-Hiromitsu-sama touched me...but we didn't go all the way!" He found the need to quickly add that point. "We really didn't go all the way, Wataru-sama..."
Wataru raised an eyebrow, but he didn't question Taisuke like previous times. "Let me make sure about that then?"
Before Taisuke could comprehend what Wataru meant, their lips were crushed together in a kiss. Whimpering, Taisuke struggled a little, but with his hands tied above his head and Wataru's weight almost completely on him, it was hard to do more than that.
Hands wandering all over Taisuke's body, Wataru was being teasing about his exploration, touching the other lightly at times and roughly at times. When he felt that breathing got a little hard, he moved his lips downwards and started to nibble on a patch of skin on Taisuke's neck.
"W-Wataru-sama," Taisuke whimpered, arching his back as the back of Wataru's hand brushed across his erection.
Wataru bit down lightly on Taisuke's skin. "I thought I told you what you should be calling me when we're in private?"
Taisuke gasped. "W-Wataru..."
Making a sound to show that he was satisfied, Wataru continued to move downwards, leaving marks all over Taisuke's chest, some as light as just plain teeth marks, but some dark enough to look almost like bruises. As he did that, his hand caressed Taisuke's inner thighs, dangerously close to Taisuke's erection, but never actually touching it.
It didn't take long before Taisuke was squirming with want, letting out small, incoherent sounds. He thrusted his hips upwards, but still couldn't get Wataru to touch him properly.
"What's wrong, Tai-chan?" Wataru purred.
"P-please, Wataru..."
Wataru licked the shell of Taisuke's ear. "Please what?"
Taisuke whimpered, "I...I want you, Wataru...!" He wanted to pull Wataru closer to him, but he obviously couldn't do it. He could feel his mind becoming more and more unclear as the sensations overwhelmed him.
"Me? Only me, Tai-chan?" Wataru rubbed one of Taisuke's nipples, feeling it harden underneath his touch."
Another whimper, Taisuke nodded his head, "O-only you, Wataru!"
"Very well..." Wataru covered Taisuke's mouth with a hand and for a second, Taisuke looked confused, but the next moment, he was practically screaming into Wataru's hand, which muffled the sound.
Wataru chuckled, trying to move his two fingers within Taisuke despite the dryness. "I said I was going to check if Hiro and you did it, right?"
Taisuke threw his head from side to side, trying to get Wataru's hand away from his mouth at the same time. It really hurt, Wataru was hurting him. Why, why was the other doing this to him? Was this punishment for letting Hiromitsu touch him, or something else?
Not taking too long with the preparation, Wataru soon moved back upwards and took his hand away. "Relax and prepare yourself, Tai-chan..."
Eyes widening, Taisuke barely had enough time before pain tore through his body and his mouth fell open in a silent scream. Tears took less than a few seconds to gather at the corners of his eyes. "W-Wataru..."
Groaning, Wataru tried to push a little further into Taisuke. "You're so tight, Tai-chan..."
It wasn't until Wataru looked down and saw Taisuke's tears though that he froze. The way the other was looking at him…
"It...it hurts..." Taisuke said in a small voice. "Wataru..."
Wataru wondered if he should pull out, but the way Taisuke felt around him was too distracting and the feeling that he got from knowing Hiromitsu and Taisuke alone was still there. "J-just relax, Tai-chan..."
Instead of going fast and hard like he wanted to, Wataru didn't move and waited for Taisuke to adjust even if just a little before moving slowly, then gaining speed in his thrusts.
"Tai-chan," Wataru moaned, and Taisuke only let out a cry as a response. Wataru wrapped a hand around Taisuke's erection and stroked to match his pace. Perhaps he wanted Taisuke to feel pleasure too, even though that hadn’t been the original idea.
Eventually, the sounds that Taisuke made did start to sound pleasurable, and he was arching his back upwards once again, though there were still tears. Wataru pushed a little deeper, harder into Taisuke, and it didn't take long for the two of them to reach their climaxes, with Wataru coming first.
When Wataru pulled out of him, Taisuke bit back a cry of pain. The tears were still rolling down his cheeks as he curled up a little consciously.
Wataru glanced at Taisuke and his lips turned into a thin line. He could see a few drops of blood that landed on the futon. Hands curling into fists, Wataru wasn't sure what to say. All the marks he made on Taisuke stood out against the other's skin, reminding him of what he had just done. Swallowing, Wataru reached out and undid the fabric that held Taisuke's hands together.
"W-Wataru-sama..."
"M-mh?" Wataru noticed how Taisuke had added back the 'sama' to his name.
Taisuke looked up at the other with his red, glassy eyes. "Do you...do you believe in me now, Wataru-sama? Hiromitsu-sama and I...really...didn't go all the way..."
"I..."
Wincing as he got up, Taisuke looked into Wataru's eyes. "Hiromitsu-sama said it, that it'll be the last time he'll ever see me. He didn’t want Wataru-sama to bring me along when visiting him ever again. Hiromitsu-sama said good-bye to me..."
Wataru looked a bit surprised. "Hiro...Hiro said that?"
Taisuke nodded his head. "That was the first time Hiromitsu-sama touched me while we were alone without Wataru-sama around, and it was also the last time..."
"Hiro, he..." Wataru looked away. He understood why Hiromitsu didn't want to see Taisuke again. To be honest, it wasn't like they've never discussed this subject before while Taisuke wasn't with them.
"And..."
"And?"
Taisuke let out a shuddery breath, wondering if he should continue with this, but at the same time, he felt like Wataru had to right to know. He shouldn't hide this from the other.
"Hiromitsu-sama also said this - that..." Taisuke stared into Wataru's eyes. "That Wataru-sama has a special place in my heart. No matter how kind Hiromitsu-sama is to me, the only one who can really touch me...is only Wataru-sama."
Wataru shook visibly. There was an almost unbelieving look in his eyes. "That..." He was at a loss for words for a moment. "Hiro said that...but do you think that as well? Do you agree with what he told you?"
Another tear rolled down his cheek and Taisuke whispered, "I don't know, Wataru-sama. I...I really don't know if Wataru-sama has that kind of place in my heart. The only thing I know for sure is...Wataru-sama is my master, and I'm only a servant. I'm only a servant..."
Taisuke could feel more tears gathering, but he quickly wiped his eyes and started to pull his hakama back on. "I...I shouldn't get in the way of your rest, Wataru-sama. I'll take my leave now." He stumbled as he got up and Wataru quickly supported him.
"I...I should walk you back."
Taisuke shook his head. "I'll be fine, Wataru-sama." He pushed the other's hand gently away from him. "...have a good night's rest, Wataru-sama." Even though his hakama was only roughly tied together, he didn't bother fixing it more before limping out of the room and sliding the door closed behind him.
Sniffling, Taisuke tilted his head upwards and stared up at the sky. What should he do now?
Taisuke spent the next few days hiding from Wataru. Not that it was really possible to do so when they were in the same estate, but he made up some excuse how Wataru wanted him to take a rest from serving him. That way, Taisuke knew he was going to get more jobs around the kitchens and running errands since it was always busy around that area.
It was a bit hard on his body at first, running errands after what happened with Wataru, but Taisuke couldn't really say anything. He didn't want to worry people thinking that he was sick or did he want to stop working. It kept his mind occupied most of the time, so he didn't have to think about his feelings for Wataru.
There was no use in denying it anymore really. It was true that he felt something special for Wataru, and that Hiromitsu was right. He didn't dare to say those feelings out loud though. Their relationship, no matter how it is looked at, it is forbidden.
Letting out a sigh as he finished cleaning the last of the dishes, Taisuke washed his hands and wiped them against his hakama. When he looked up, he recognized the servant he had talked to at the castle walking by.
A question crossed his mind and Taisuke decided to ask the other. "Um, do you have a few seconds...?"
"Taisuke-kun? What is it?"
Taisuke hesitated for a moment before asking, "Remember Ohara-sama? You told me about him, right?"
The man nodded. "Yes, I did. What about him?"
Biting on his lip, Taisuke shook his head. "It's just...I came across him during one of my errands and he actually spoke to me..." He looked around and made sure no one was listening before lowering his voice, "I didn't like the feeling he gave me. Does he really not like Yokoo-sama that much?"
Following Taisuke's movement and checking their surroundings as well, the man then nodded his head. "I heard whenever they're in the same meeting, their opinions would clash all the time, and Ohara-sama believes that if Yokoo-sama isn't around, he would have a lot more power." He waved Taisuke to step a little closer. "They say he's willing to do anything to obtain more power, so if you saw him and he spoke to you..."
Taisuke swallowed nervously. "M-me? I'm just a servant though..."
"You never know what that man might be thinking, Taisuke-kun. Just be careful, alright?"
Taisuke nodded. "Thanks for telling me all this."
The man just smiled and patted Taisuke on the shoulder before leaving. Watching the other walk away, Taisuke wondered why there was still this unsettling feeling within him.
Thankfully, it has gotten busy again, with the season changing soon, so Taisuke busied himself and tried not to think about anything, though that was kind of difficult. Just when he thought that maybe Wataru won't come for him, however, the other managed to prove him wrong.
Taisuke looked up from scaling the fish in surprise when he heard surprised gasps from servants around him. "W-Wataru-sama?"
"You're coming with me," Wataru growled slightly and grabbed Taisuke's wrist.
"A-ah, please wait!" Taisuke only got a chance to put down the knife he was holding though before Wataru dragged him away, not caring the dirty state of Taisuke's hands.
Wataru just kept on dragging Taisuke along until they were in the garden area near Wataru's room, somewhat hidden by the various plants and rocks that decorated the garden. "W-Wataru-sama...?" He wiped his hands consciously against his hakama.
"You finished hiding from me yet?"
"E-eh?" Taisuke looked away, feeling awkward.
Wataru sighed and pulled Taisuke into his arms and hugged the other tightly, pressing the other's head against his shoulders. "I...I'm sorry, Tai-chan."
Taisuke blinked, not moving. "W-Wataru-sama?"
Clearing his throat, Wataru said, "I'm sorry I did that. I shouldn't have done that. I hurt you, hurt you really badly...both physically and emotionally. I don't know if you'll forgive me, and it's okay if you don't. That was a horrible thing I did to you. Even worse than that first time..."
Lifting his head up, Taisuke bit down on his lip as he looked at Wataru. "Wataru-sama, I..."
"I'm not finished," Wataru cut Taisuke off. "I know I'm your master, and you're my servant, and that's supposed to be our relationship, but...but I don't like it."
Taisuke's heart skipped a beat. "W-what do you mean, Wataru-sama...?"
Wataru drew his lips into a thin line. "Do you really like this, Tai-chan? We both know it's not normal, right? Just as long you're with me, I don't think I'll stop kissing you, touching you, so...tell me if you don't like it. Then I'll let you go back to the kitchen and we'll go back to a normal master and servant relationship, or maybe, we don't have to see each other anymore either if you wish."
For a moment, Taisuke felt like he couldn't breathe. "W-what would that make us then? If we won't be a normal pair of master and servant?"
Not saying anything, Wataru just looked into Taisuke's eyes. Taisuke sucked in his breath. It wasn't hard to read the thoughts that were visible behind Wataru's eyes. Was Wataru serious about this?
He understood the reason why Wataru didn't say it out loud though. If they spoke of it out loud, it would seem to make everything even more forbidden than it already was, and that would definitely affect their feelings.
Pulling back Taisuke into a hug when he didn't say anything, Wataru whispered, "I know it won't be easy to forgive me after that, but I just want you to know that I'm really sorry, and I'll never do that again. It's just...I don't like people touching you without me knowing." Wataru shook his head. "No, I don't like anyone else touching you. Hiro had been special because we had something between us before you came along, but even so..."
Taisuke wondered if this was the first time he actually heard about what Wataru was feeling. The other had always been somewhat a mystery to him. It had been hard to read what the other was thinking, but now Wataru was just telling him everything. Maybe that was why Taisuke's heart was beating a little quicker right now.
"Wataru-sama..."
"Mh?" Wataru pulled back so they could look at each other, but still kept them close to each other.
Taisuke bit down on his lip. "I can trust Wataru-sama, right?" Maybe he was being too easy about this, but he couldn't ignore the feelings in his heart.
A frown appeared on Wataru's face. "You mean I'm not trustworthy? You think I'm lying about this?"
Flushed, Taisuke quickly shook his head. "I...I didn't mean that. It's just..."
Wataru softened his voice, "I'm not lying, Tai-chan. I know I have a lot of faults, but I'm willing to change. I don't want to hurt you again. If you're willing, then..."
Slowly, Taisuke raised his arms to wrap around Wataru's waist hesitantly. "I...I thought about what Hiromitsu-sama said a lot these few days even though I had tried not to, and about Wataru-sama too," he admitted. He then lowered his eyes, not wanting to meet the other's gaze. "I...I don't think Hiromitsu-sama is wrong after all. Wataru-sama...Wataru really do have a special place in my heart. No matter what, it doesn't feel like I would hate Wataru..."
"Tai-chan..." Wataru resisted the urge to kiss Taisuke right now, feeling that the other was not finished with talking.
"It still hurts though, thinking about that night," Taisuke mumbled. "Wataru-sama...was scary that night..."
Wataru tightened his grip around Taisuke. "I'm sorry," he apologized again.
"But if Wataru says he won't do it again, I want to trust those words..." Taisuke lifted his head to give Wataru a small smile. "I...I don't hate Wataru-sama, so don't tell me to stop serving you..."
"Tai-chan...!" Wataru buried his face in the crook of Taisuke's neck. "You don't even have to serve me, especially when we're alone. I just want you by my side, Tai-chan. I know I can't promise you a lot at all, but if you're by my side..."
Feeling tears gathering in his eyes, Taisuke nodded his head, hugging Wataru back. "I want to stay by Wataru's side too..."
Pressing their foreheads together, Wataru murmured, "Promise?"
"Un. I promise..."
Wataru smiled. "No matter what happens, I'll try my best to make you happy, Tai-chan. I promise I'll stay by your side too..."
Taisuke's heart fluttered in response. The world suddenly felt so much more brighter. Even though they both knew that there was Wataru's impending wedding, but it didn't matter to them right now. They had each other after all, and that was enough.
"Thank you, Tai-chan," Wataru murmured as he pressed their lips together gently. Taisuke just smiled and responded to the kiss.
Too concentrated on each other, they didn't notice a shadow disappearing around the corner.
Author's Notes: Wataru, for you, I'm going manage a miracle and finish this fic for your birthday. >| ...somehow. See? It's a YoSuke fic. I was not lying. >>'' Wataru was somewhat of a jerk, but I hope he redeemed himself. Somewhat at least.
This chapter is rather choppy somehow, or is it just me? Well, I definitely wrote it in generally very choppily. I didn't write this chapter in order. 8D; And hey, it's only been less than two weeks since my last update. Be thankful it's Wataru's birthday in less than a day's time! //whacked//
I better finish this fic before it gets forgotten, lol. XD;
Not much to say...
Comments are love and appreciated~
Part Eight
Author: Shattered Tenshi
Rating: NC-17
Fandom: JE
Genre: AU, Romance
Pairing: Yokoo Wataru x Fujigaya Taisuke, Kitayama Hiromitsu x Fujigaya Taisuke
Warnings: //points at rating// Possible dub-con, depending on how you read it.
Part One | Part Two | Part Three | Part Four | Part Five | Part Six
Soba ni Ite
By Shattered Tenshi
Part Seven
Taisuke whimpered when Yokoo sucked on a patch of skin on his neck. "W-Wataru-sama...Hiromitsu-sama and I...really didn't do any more than kissing and touching...!"
"Don't lie to me," Wataru said in a low voice. "These marks don't look like nothing to me."
Looking at Wataru with confused eyes, Taisuke then shook his head. "We really didn't..."
Wataru cupped Taisuke's cheek with his hand. "Why'd you let Hiro touch you, Tai-chan? I thought, if I wasn't there..."
Taisuke shook his head again, not knowing what to say. What was Wataru implying? That he really liked Wataru more after all and that Wataru know about this? He didn't understand the reason behind Wataru's actions at all.
Too lost in his own thoughts, Taisuke barely noticed Wataru undoing his obi and pushing open his hakama. He let out a sharp gasp when he felt Wataru tying his wrists together above his head. "W-Wataru-sama...?"
"Don't run away from me," Wataru murmured as he tied a knot. He had used the white strip of fabric that was used to tie together the hakama underneath the thicker obi.
"I..." Taisuke was a little stiff underneath Wataru. There was something different about Wataru tonight, or had the other acted weirdly even earlier? Why? Taisuke didn't understand.
Wataru sat up a little and looked down at Taisuke, tracing down Taisuke's neck using his finger. "Tell me. What did you and Hiro do?"
Taisuke squirmed and turned his head away, but didn't do anymore than that. Even though Wataru had tied his wrists together, he still wouldn't push Wataru away. Was Hiromitsu right after all?
"I'm going to make my own assumptions if you don’t say anything, Tai-chan." Wataru bent down and breathed into Taisuke's ear. "If you two really didn't do anything, then tell me what exactly you did do then."
Resisting the urge to shiver, Taisuke glanced at Wataru. "We...we just kissed, Wataru-sama."
Wataru shook his head as he caressed Taisuke's neck gently. "You're bad at lying, Tai-chan. Kissing wasn't the only thing, right?" He then touched one of the marks on Taisuke's skin.
A small whimper slipping from his lips, Taisuke finally whispered, "H-Hiromitsu-sama touched me...but we didn't go all the way!" He found the need to quickly add that point. "We really didn't go all the way, Wataru-sama..."
Wataru raised an eyebrow, but he didn't question Taisuke like previous times. "Let me make sure about that then?"
Before Taisuke could comprehend what Wataru meant, their lips were crushed together in a kiss. Whimpering, Taisuke struggled a little, but with his hands tied above his head and Wataru's weight almost completely on him, it was hard to do more than that.
Hands wandering all over Taisuke's body, Wataru was being teasing about his exploration, touching the other lightly at times and roughly at times. When he felt that breathing got a little hard, he moved his lips downwards and started to nibble on a patch of skin on Taisuke's neck.
"W-Wataru-sama," Taisuke whimpered, arching his back as the back of Wataru's hand brushed across his erection.
Wataru bit down lightly on Taisuke's skin. "I thought I told you what you should be calling me when we're in private?"
Taisuke gasped. "W-Wataru..."
Making a sound to show that he was satisfied, Wataru continued to move downwards, leaving marks all over Taisuke's chest, some as light as just plain teeth marks, but some dark enough to look almost like bruises. As he did that, his hand caressed Taisuke's inner thighs, dangerously close to Taisuke's erection, but never actually touching it.
It didn't take long before Taisuke was squirming with want, letting out small, incoherent sounds. He thrusted his hips upwards, but still couldn't get Wataru to touch him properly.
"What's wrong, Tai-chan?" Wataru purred.
"P-please, Wataru..."
Wataru licked the shell of Taisuke's ear. "Please what?"
Taisuke whimpered, "I...I want you, Wataru...!" He wanted to pull Wataru closer to him, but he obviously couldn't do it. He could feel his mind becoming more and more unclear as the sensations overwhelmed him.
"Me? Only me, Tai-chan?" Wataru rubbed one of Taisuke's nipples, feeling it harden underneath his touch."
Another whimper, Taisuke nodded his head, "O-only you, Wataru!"
"Very well..." Wataru covered Taisuke's mouth with a hand and for a second, Taisuke looked confused, but the next moment, he was practically screaming into Wataru's hand, which muffled the sound.
Wataru chuckled, trying to move his two fingers within Taisuke despite the dryness. "I said I was going to check if Hiro and you did it, right?"
Taisuke threw his head from side to side, trying to get Wataru's hand away from his mouth at the same time. It really hurt, Wataru was hurting him. Why, why was the other doing this to him? Was this punishment for letting Hiromitsu touch him, or something else?
Not taking too long with the preparation, Wataru soon moved back upwards and took his hand away. "Relax and prepare yourself, Tai-chan..."
Eyes widening, Taisuke barely had enough time before pain tore through his body and his mouth fell open in a silent scream. Tears took less than a few seconds to gather at the corners of his eyes. "W-Wataru..."
Groaning, Wataru tried to push a little further into Taisuke. "You're so tight, Tai-chan..."
It wasn't until Wataru looked down and saw Taisuke's tears though that he froze. The way the other was looking at him…
"It...it hurts..." Taisuke said in a small voice. "Wataru..."
Wataru wondered if he should pull out, but the way Taisuke felt around him was too distracting and the feeling that he got from knowing Hiromitsu and Taisuke alone was still there. "J-just relax, Tai-chan..."
Instead of going fast and hard like he wanted to, Wataru didn't move and waited for Taisuke to adjust even if just a little before moving slowly, then gaining speed in his thrusts.
"Tai-chan," Wataru moaned, and Taisuke only let out a cry as a response. Wataru wrapped a hand around Taisuke's erection and stroked to match his pace. Perhaps he wanted Taisuke to feel pleasure too, even though that hadn’t been the original idea.
Eventually, the sounds that Taisuke made did start to sound pleasurable, and he was arching his back upwards once again, though there were still tears. Wataru pushed a little deeper, harder into Taisuke, and it didn't take long for the two of them to reach their climaxes, with Wataru coming first.
When Wataru pulled out of him, Taisuke bit back a cry of pain. The tears were still rolling down his cheeks as he curled up a little consciously.
Wataru glanced at Taisuke and his lips turned into a thin line. He could see a few drops of blood that landed on the futon. Hands curling into fists, Wataru wasn't sure what to say. All the marks he made on Taisuke stood out against the other's skin, reminding him of what he had just done. Swallowing, Wataru reached out and undid the fabric that held Taisuke's hands together.
"W-Wataru-sama..."
"M-mh?" Wataru noticed how Taisuke had added back the 'sama' to his name.
Taisuke looked up at the other with his red, glassy eyes. "Do you...do you believe in me now, Wataru-sama? Hiromitsu-sama and I...really...didn't go all the way..."
"I..."
Wincing as he got up, Taisuke looked into Wataru's eyes. "Hiromitsu-sama said it, that it'll be the last time he'll ever see me. He didn’t want Wataru-sama to bring me along when visiting him ever again. Hiromitsu-sama said good-bye to me..."
Wataru looked a bit surprised. "Hiro...Hiro said that?"
Taisuke nodded his head. "That was the first time Hiromitsu-sama touched me while we were alone without Wataru-sama around, and it was also the last time..."
"Hiro, he..." Wataru looked away. He understood why Hiromitsu didn't want to see Taisuke again. To be honest, it wasn't like they've never discussed this subject before while Taisuke wasn't with them.
"And..."
"And?"
Taisuke let out a shuddery breath, wondering if he should continue with this, but at the same time, he felt like Wataru had to right to know. He shouldn't hide this from the other.
"Hiromitsu-sama also said this - that..." Taisuke stared into Wataru's eyes. "That Wataru-sama has a special place in my heart. No matter how kind Hiromitsu-sama is to me, the only one who can really touch me...is only Wataru-sama."
Wataru shook visibly. There was an almost unbelieving look in his eyes. "That..." He was at a loss for words for a moment. "Hiro said that...but do you think that as well? Do you agree with what he told you?"
Another tear rolled down his cheek and Taisuke whispered, "I don't know, Wataru-sama. I...I really don't know if Wataru-sama has that kind of place in my heart. The only thing I know for sure is...Wataru-sama is my master, and I'm only a servant. I'm only a servant..."
Taisuke could feel more tears gathering, but he quickly wiped his eyes and started to pull his hakama back on. "I...I shouldn't get in the way of your rest, Wataru-sama. I'll take my leave now." He stumbled as he got up and Wataru quickly supported him.
"I...I should walk you back."
Taisuke shook his head. "I'll be fine, Wataru-sama." He pushed the other's hand gently away from him. "...have a good night's rest, Wataru-sama." Even though his hakama was only roughly tied together, he didn't bother fixing it more before limping out of the room and sliding the door closed behind him.
Sniffling, Taisuke tilted his head upwards and stared up at the sky. What should he do now?
Taisuke spent the next few days hiding from Wataru. Not that it was really possible to do so when they were in the same estate, but he made up some excuse how Wataru wanted him to take a rest from serving him. That way, Taisuke knew he was going to get more jobs around the kitchens and running errands since it was always busy around that area.
It was a bit hard on his body at first, running errands after what happened with Wataru, but Taisuke couldn't really say anything. He didn't want to worry people thinking that he was sick or did he want to stop working. It kept his mind occupied most of the time, so he didn't have to think about his feelings for Wataru.
There was no use in denying it anymore really. It was true that he felt something special for Wataru, and that Hiromitsu was right. He didn't dare to say those feelings out loud though. Their relationship, no matter how it is looked at, it is forbidden.
Letting out a sigh as he finished cleaning the last of the dishes, Taisuke washed his hands and wiped them against his hakama. When he looked up, he recognized the servant he had talked to at the castle walking by.
A question crossed his mind and Taisuke decided to ask the other. "Um, do you have a few seconds...?"
"Taisuke-kun? What is it?"
Taisuke hesitated for a moment before asking, "Remember Ohara-sama? You told me about him, right?"
The man nodded. "Yes, I did. What about him?"
Biting on his lip, Taisuke shook his head. "It's just...I came across him during one of my errands and he actually spoke to me..." He looked around and made sure no one was listening before lowering his voice, "I didn't like the feeling he gave me. Does he really not like Yokoo-sama that much?"
Following Taisuke's movement and checking their surroundings as well, the man then nodded his head. "I heard whenever they're in the same meeting, their opinions would clash all the time, and Ohara-sama believes that if Yokoo-sama isn't around, he would have a lot more power." He waved Taisuke to step a little closer. "They say he's willing to do anything to obtain more power, so if you saw him and he spoke to you..."
Taisuke swallowed nervously. "M-me? I'm just a servant though..."
"You never know what that man might be thinking, Taisuke-kun. Just be careful, alright?"
Taisuke nodded. "Thanks for telling me all this."
The man just smiled and patted Taisuke on the shoulder before leaving. Watching the other walk away, Taisuke wondered why there was still this unsettling feeling within him.
Thankfully, it has gotten busy again, with the season changing soon, so Taisuke busied himself and tried not to think about anything, though that was kind of difficult. Just when he thought that maybe Wataru won't come for him, however, the other managed to prove him wrong.
Taisuke looked up from scaling the fish in surprise when he heard surprised gasps from servants around him. "W-Wataru-sama?"
"You're coming with me," Wataru growled slightly and grabbed Taisuke's wrist.
"A-ah, please wait!" Taisuke only got a chance to put down the knife he was holding though before Wataru dragged him away, not caring the dirty state of Taisuke's hands.
Wataru just kept on dragging Taisuke along until they were in the garden area near Wataru's room, somewhat hidden by the various plants and rocks that decorated the garden. "W-Wataru-sama...?" He wiped his hands consciously against his hakama.
"You finished hiding from me yet?"
"E-eh?" Taisuke looked away, feeling awkward.
Wataru sighed and pulled Taisuke into his arms and hugged the other tightly, pressing the other's head against his shoulders. "I...I'm sorry, Tai-chan."
Taisuke blinked, not moving. "W-Wataru-sama?"
Clearing his throat, Wataru said, "I'm sorry I did that. I shouldn't have done that. I hurt you, hurt you really badly...both physically and emotionally. I don't know if you'll forgive me, and it's okay if you don't. That was a horrible thing I did to you. Even worse than that first time..."
Lifting his head up, Taisuke bit down on his lip as he looked at Wataru. "Wataru-sama, I..."
"I'm not finished," Wataru cut Taisuke off. "I know I'm your master, and you're my servant, and that's supposed to be our relationship, but...but I don't like it."
Taisuke's heart skipped a beat. "W-what do you mean, Wataru-sama...?"
Wataru drew his lips into a thin line. "Do you really like this, Tai-chan? We both know it's not normal, right? Just as long you're with me, I don't think I'll stop kissing you, touching you, so...tell me if you don't like it. Then I'll let you go back to the kitchen and we'll go back to a normal master and servant relationship, or maybe, we don't have to see each other anymore either if you wish."
For a moment, Taisuke felt like he couldn't breathe. "W-what would that make us then? If we won't be a normal pair of master and servant?"
Not saying anything, Wataru just looked into Taisuke's eyes. Taisuke sucked in his breath. It wasn't hard to read the thoughts that were visible behind Wataru's eyes. Was Wataru serious about this?
He understood the reason why Wataru didn't say it out loud though. If they spoke of it out loud, it would seem to make everything even more forbidden than it already was, and that would definitely affect their feelings.
Pulling back Taisuke into a hug when he didn't say anything, Wataru whispered, "I know it won't be easy to forgive me after that, but I just want you to know that I'm really sorry, and I'll never do that again. It's just...I don't like people touching you without me knowing." Wataru shook his head. "No, I don't like anyone else touching you. Hiro had been special because we had something between us before you came along, but even so..."
Taisuke wondered if this was the first time he actually heard about what Wataru was feeling. The other had always been somewhat a mystery to him. It had been hard to read what the other was thinking, but now Wataru was just telling him everything. Maybe that was why Taisuke's heart was beating a little quicker right now.
"Wataru-sama..."
"Mh?" Wataru pulled back so they could look at each other, but still kept them close to each other.
Taisuke bit down on his lip. "I can trust Wataru-sama, right?" Maybe he was being too easy about this, but he couldn't ignore the feelings in his heart.
A frown appeared on Wataru's face. "You mean I'm not trustworthy? You think I'm lying about this?"
Flushed, Taisuke quickly shook his head. "I...I didn't mean that. It's just..."
Wataru softened his voice, "I'm not lying, Tai-chan. I know I have a lot of faults, but I'm willing to change. I don't want to hurt you again. If you're willing, then..."
Slowly, Taisuke raised his arms to wrap around Wataru's waist hesitantly. "I...I thought about what Hiromitsu-sama said a lot these few days even though I had tried not to, and about Wataru-sama too," he admitted. He then lowered his eyes, not wanting to meet the other's gaze. "I...I don't think Hiromitsu-sama is wrong after all. Wataru-sama...Wataru really do have a special place in my heart. No matter what, it doesn't feel like I would hate Wataru..."
"Tai-chan..." Wataru resisted the urge to kiss Taisuke right now, feeling that the other was not finished with talking.
"It still hurts though, thinking about that night," Taisuke mumbled. "Wataru-sama...was scary that night..."
Wataru tightened his grip around Taisuke. "I'm sorry," he apologized again.
"But if Wataru says he won't do it again, I want to trust those words..." Taisuke lifted his head to give Wataru a small smile. "I...I don't hate Wataru-sama, so don't tell me to stop serving you..."
"Tai-chan...!" Wataru buried his face in the crook of Taisuke's neck. "You don't even have to serve me, especially when we're alone. I just want you by my side, Tai-chan. I know I can't promise you a lot at all, but if you're by my side..."
Feeling tears gathering in his eyes, Taisuke nodded his head, hugging Wataru back. "I want to stay by Wataru's side too..."
Pressing their foreheads together, Wataru murmured, "Promise?"
"Un. I promise..."
Wataru smiled. "No matter what happens, I'll try my best to make you happy, Tai-chan. I promise I'll stay by your side too..."
Taisuke's heart fluttered in response. The world suddenly felt so much more brighter. Even though they both knew that there was Wataru's impending wedding, but it didn't matter to them right now. They had each other after all, and that was enough.
"Thank you, Tai-chan," Wataru murmured as he pressed their lips together gently. Taisuke just smiled and responded to the kiss.
Too concentrated on each other, they didn't notice a shadow disappearing around the corner.
Author's Notes: Wataru, for you, I'm going manage a miracle and finish this fic for your birthday. >| ...somehow. See? It's a YoSuke fic. I was not lying. >>'' Wataru was somewhat of a jerk, but I hope he redeemed himself. Somewhat at least.
This chapter is rather choppy somehow, or is it just me? Well, I definitely wrote it in generally very choppily. I didn't write this chapter in order. 8D; And hey, it's only been less than two weeks since my last update. Be thankful it's Wataru's birthday in less than a day's time! //whacked//
I better finish this fic before it gets forgotten, lol. XD;
Not much to say...
Comments are love and appreciated~
Part Eight