*Feel the rain on your Skin*
I'm glad I remembered about this journal. I have been really "down in the dumps" these past couple days. I just feel really lonely and confused here lately...I feel like everyone and everything in my life is so distant right now. I mean, everything was so perfect a few weeks ago but after Spring Break it's like everything went down hill. It seems like if one thing goes wrong, 1000 more things have to follow. I just dont understand it. So I guess this entry will mainly be me venting...blah.
I guess the main thing I'm concerned with right now is my Uncle and his health. He hasnt been doing very well lately, and it's really got me down. And just the fact that there is no cure doesnt help with emotions any...cause we all know what the outcome will eventually be. It's just hard to see everyone in the family so upset and worried about it...so you could say the atmosphere around my house has been depressing. We went to visit him yesterday in Indianapolis, so it was really crazy. He got me a freakin Coach purse and Wallet for my early birthday/graduation present. I was like woah! I had no clue how I was suppose to react cause I have never gotten anything like that from anyone...but he said he wanted me to have it early just incase. I just really hope things get better with him because I love him, and I hate to see him like this. But I trust in God, and I know that he will do what is best.
I just wish I had someone I could trust to talk to about all this. I did have someone that I would tell everything to, but I dont know about that anymore. I try to call her and text her, but she never answers anymore. I feel like she doesnt care about me as a best friend anymore...and that's also hard to deal with. She was my best friend and I miss her like crazy. I dont have any idea where I went wrong...I wish she would just talk to me so we could figure things out and fix things...but everytime I ask her if she's mad or what's wrong she always says "nothing" or "I'm just tired". But who knows...maybe we really werent best friends after all...cause best friends actually talk about things and let eachother know whats bugging them...and she doesnt do any of that. She just pushes them to the side and doesnt even try. I hate that more than anything. I guess I'm just the type of person that likes to work things out...and she's not...I just dont know... =(
But on a good note...today was my first day working at Abercrombie. I had a pretty good time, cause everyone there is so nice and the managers are really awesome. Plus it's real easy money! All I have to do is fold clothes neatly, manage the changing rooms, and the work at the cash register. I work all next week besides Monday, so I'm really excited about that. Hopefully it will give me the chance to meet new people and get my mind off things... =)
I guess the main thing I'm concerned with right now is my Uncle and his health. He hasnt been doing very well lately, and it's really got me down. And just the fact that there is no cure doesnt help with emotions any...cause we all know what the outcome will eventually be. It's just hard to see everyone in the family so upset and worried about it...so you could say the atmosphere around my house has been depressing. We went to visit him yesterday in Indianapolis, so it was really crazy. He got me a freakin Coach purse and Wallet for my early birthday/graduation present. I was like woah! I had no clue how I was suppose to react cause I have never gotten anything like that from anyone...but he said he wanted me to have it early just incase. I just really hope things get better with him because I love him, and I hate to see him like this. But I trust in God, and I know that he will do what is best.
I just wish I had someone I could trust to talk to about all this. I did have someone that I would tell everything to, but I dont know about that anymore. I try to call her and text her, but she never answers anymore. I feel like she doesnt care about me as a best friend anymore...and that's also hard to deal with. She was my best friend and I miss her like crazy. I dont have any idea where I went wrong...I wish she would just talk to me so we could figure things out and fix things...but everytime I ask her if she's mad or what's wrong she always says "nothing" or "I'm just tired". But who knows...maybe we really werent best friends after all...cause best friends actually talk about things and let eachother know whats bugging them...and she doesnt do any of that. She just pushes them to the side and doesnt even try. I hate that more than anything. I guess I'm just the type of person that likes to work things out...and she's not...I just dont know... =(
But on a good note...today was my first day working at Abercrombie. I had a pretty good time, cause everyone there is so nice and the managers are really awesome. Plus it's real easy money! All I have to do is fold clothes neatly, manage the changing rooms, and the work at the cash register. I work all next week besides Monday, so I'm really excited about that. Hopefully it will give me the chance to meet new people and get my mind off things... =)