Another day - Another dream crushed.
I...Well, for once I don't know how..exactly to start one of these entries..give it a try anyways, I guess..
Another Day - Another Dream Crushed. I know..i'm not the best guy in the world. Not the nicest..best looking..I know I don't have the best personality..and I may be harsh sometimes..overbearing or I may jump to conclusions faster then I should..I know this..I know I have done some terrible and horrorable things in the past..and possibly in the future, who knows..but..well.
What did I do to deserve this..? I mean, I don't want..no huge explaination..just..a small reason on why I deserve all this..as if the other day wasn't bad enough..just found out today, I got the address and directions to the ITT-Tech school..but..it's to far away. 50 miles to be exact..down by the airport..of course..being how I am..I have to call them up..and tell them I can't make it. It's to far away..and cancel everything.
Already i'm being yelled at to get another job..one with benefits, so my grandfather so rightfully proclaims..but..here's the paradox..how can I get a full time job, that gives full benefits and decent hours and pay..without schooling..? So..once again..i'm stuck. No way to get out..
I'm sorry people..I really..truely am..but i'm reaching my limits..I can't take anymore..I have no more dreams left. At all. Without schooling..I can't get a well paying job with benefits..without that well paying job..I can't open a savings account..without that savings account..I can't save up for my implant teeth..without that one account..I can't save up to get to my girlfriend..
Someone once told me, I believe it was my english teacher; one of the rare moments I was awake during his class..there was always thought to be a specific type of Wraith..a wandering soul..that was_never_destined for happiness..but always there to help and support others. Giving them strength to where they can stand on there own and face the world before it finally drifted away, leaving not even a memory of it's passing..i'm starting to believe that it does exist now..indeed I am.
I'm sorry Amanda..it looks like a few more years were just added to our deadline on finally meeting and being together..I'm sorry..