Death's gentle, awaiting embrace.
I...the..fuck? Your all possibly wondering about the title. Yes, it sounds just the way it's ment to. Why? Well. Shitness; below you'll find out.
What compells a man..to spearhead a decision pretaining to someone elses own well being..says he'll go to hell and back to make sure i'm okies and to make sure i'm comfortable, then turn around and say he resents that person for it? Yes. Your right. It's fucked up. And outright, makes me feel like shit.
My grandfather was the one who suggested the dentures and pushed for them, did all the research and searching for the right dentist. He knew it'd be expensive, but I quote: "It doesn't matter..we have the money now and we can't have him getting sick or in pain, so we need to do it regardless of the price." End quote. Of course, now he sounds like a good guy, right? Wrongo. Today, he did it. Indeed he did. Quote: "This is my retirement money and i'm really starting to resent that fact."...End quote. Hey. Look at it my way, eh?
I'm 20 years old. Going on 21 and I have..dentures. Can we say inscure to all hell and back? Indeedy. Then you turn around and tell me you RESENT me for it, because it was your idea and how expensive it is? Uhm...yeh. I was perfectly fucking happy with my old teeth. They weren't the best thing to look at, far from it. But least they didn't hurt, I could eat, breathe, talk, sleep. Everything..and then you turn around, make it to where I have no real choice in the matter and rip them from my head..then tell me you resent me for it? Okies.
Again, i'm a reasonable guy. I understand somethings..but telling an insecure person..that you resent him..for your decision? Indeed. Death's gentle, awaiting embrace is my salvation and freedom. Regardless to all the good things in my life..my girlfriend..my friends..my damned cats..my videogames..i'm getting to the point...to where I can't take it..anymore. It's either I go..or they go, either way I lose. So why give a shit? I don't anymore. I DON'T FUCKING CARE ANYMORE! I don't care how they feel. How they are. If their in pain or not. I_don't_fucking_care_anymore. Either something gives and something extremely good happens..or people will finally fucking see the real reasons why my friend Lyli gave me the fucking nickname of "Dragon"..
After all, what do I have to lose now? My ego? Pfft. My security? Pfft. So much for those things. No more honor in my life. Nothing. I should just go join Tawny, my unnamed big brother/sister, my best friend Adam and everyone else i've lost up in those pearly white gates.
Laters, maybe.