One day at a time.
Life is pretty good for me right now but sometimes it all seems a little fuzzy around the edges...
I've been contemplating a little more on where I'd like me life to go or rather what I'd like to get out of life as I go along and this is what I've decided so far:
I am moving toward a goal of financial freedom and building a deposit to get my own place;
I am keeping healthy in my body by exercising regularly and eating way healthier than I ever have before;
I am single now and using my time creatively, not that I couldn't before, but now I have more time I am painting, drawing and writing more fiction than in the last year and a half and it makes me feel good;
I am moving towards developing my creativity into something rather cool that fulfils me in ways that nothing else can;
I am developing my relationship with my spirituality in a deeper way which is not easily expressed in words, so this'll do;
I am developing myself musically by learing to play the violin which brings me great joy; and
I am taking every opportunity to be with Bobby as he ages and making the most of the days that I am still blessed to have him in my life. Even though I will grieve for him when his time comes, I will do all that I can to celebrate the joy, love and companionship that he has brought into my life. Already I have a heart shaped locket that I wear which holds a strand or two his fur so he is always with me wherever I go!
So, one day at a time I am moving from fuzzy to clarity and moving towards what makes me feel really good and happy about myself and my life now.
I also had an interesting revelation recently about my relationships. I have craved to meet the right guy for me for a long time and I do still hold that hope inside my heart, but I have been hurt many times over. I realised that what I had asked for in a man had not turned up in my life previously because I was not ready for him. When I say that, I mean that I had to go through some personal 'relationship' experiences to become ready for this person to enter into my life. It was like a lightening strike when it hit me and I still have faith that what I have prayed for in my life will manifest.
I am loved, I deserve love and I receive love because I am love.
Blessed Be.
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