The day after...
I had a terrible night's sleep with the heart rate monitor on last night. I tried to have a good sleep but my lower back was aching and I couldn't turn on my side. It was hot, sweaty and there were cords all over my tummy area attached to the probs on my chest and on each side of my ribs.
I didn't have any palipitations until this afternoon, and then they came regularly again. It'll be good to see what comes of having the monitor on for 24 hours.
My skin itched so badly where the sticky pads were on my skin and I couldn't wait to get them off this morning. I had the monitor on until about 10am and then they were all off and I was straight in the shower.
Even my housemate who got up just before I got in the shower said my energy was out of sorts and he was right. I have to admit I was anxious about having the monitor on; one because it made me more aware of the flutters that I feel in my chest nearly every day that may or may not mean something serious in my life; two because I was terrified that I'd accidentally knock off the wire probs which actually did happen. This of course led to me not being able to sleep well which made me feel tired this morning and my energy being raggady ass to my housemate.
Since then I've spent the day with Surfer Dude and we went to Adlis to buy some food, then off for a coffee and some lunch, followed by a small side trip to the local indian food shop for me to get some provisions for the next week. I spent way too much money today...
I'm pretty tired right now and I should be going to bed to get better rest, but it's just so hot tonight and I'm wondering if I'm going to sleep at all.
At the moment I'm listening to Caroline Myss's 'Entering the Castle'. I've listened to all the cds before, but I like to revisit it as everytime I do new things drop in my mind and consciousness. I connect to my own spirituality in a positive way. Caroline Myss can be confronting and in my face sometimes, but I find I like that up front truth telling as I can see more about myself and where I'm going, who I am and what my purpose and where I've been hiding behind excuses by the light being shone on the dark places within me.
Much is going on on the inside of me at the moment and maybe this seems selfish to write about my inner world, sharing it as though I'm really important, but in truth I'm sorting through things and sharing the things that are important to my life, my values and hopefully connecting with others in a positive way.
Life is a journey and I don't think we're meant to be 100% alone but aloneness is important for us to come to know who we are without distraction.
Gosh... I'm tired, so I'll sign off now and get some of that much needed rest for my body. No matter the outcome of my heart, my life is still wonderful. I am loved, I am cared for, I am rich in learning from my mistakes and in love in many many many ways.
I am developing the stamina to hear and see the divine in action in my life now.
Not sure any of this blog will make sense - am very tired now.
Good night and blessings to you and your loved ones.
May there be peace between us now and forever.
Blessed be with love.
I didn't have any palipitations until this afternoon, and then they came regularly again. It'll be good to see what comes of having the monitor on for 24 hours.
My skin itched so badly where the sticky pads were on my skin and I couldn't wait to get them off this morning. I had the monitor on until about 10am and then they were all off and I was straight in the shower.
Even my housemate who got up just before I got in the shower said my energy was out of sorts and he was right. I have to admit I was anxious about having the monitor on; one because it made me more aware of the flutters that I feel in my chest nearly every day that may or may not mean something serious in my life; two because I was terrified that I'd accidentally knock off the wire probs which actually did happen. This of course led to me not being able to sleep well which made me feel tired this morning and my energy being raggady ass to my housemate.
Since then I've spent the day with Surfer Dude and we went to Adlis to buy some food, then off for a coffee and some lunch, followed by a small side trip to the local indian food shop for me to get some provisions for the next week. I spent way too much money today...
I'm pretty tired right now and I should be going to bed to get better rest, but it's just so hot tonight and I'm wondering if I'm going to sleep at all.
At the moment I'm listening to Caroline Myss's 'Entering the Castle'. I've listened to all the cds before, but I like to revisit it as everytime I do new things drop in my mind and consciousness. I connect to my own spirituality in a positive way. Caroline Myss can be confronting and in my face sometimes, but I find I like that up front truth telling as I can see more about myself and where I'm going, who I am and what my purpose and where I've been hiding behind excuses by the light being shone on the dark places within me.
Much is going on on the inside of me at the moment and maybe this seems selfish to write about my inner world, sharing it as though I'm really important, but in truth I'm sorting through things and sharing the things that are important to my life, my values and hopefully connecting with others in a positive way.
Life is a journey and I don't think we're meant to be 100% alone but aloneness is important for us to come to know who we are without distraction.
Gosh... I'm tired, so I'll sign off now and get some of that much needed rest for my body. No matter the outcome of my heart, my life is still wonderful. I am loved, I am cared for, I am rich in learning from my mistakes and in love in many many many ways.
I am developing the stamina to hear and see the divine in action in my life now.
Not sure any of this blog will make sense - am very tired now.
Good night and blessings to you and your loved ones.
May there be peace between us now and forever.
Blessed be with love.