Private Realisations
Blogging is interesting because it tends to cause me to reflect on my life and feelings. And I haven’t done much blogging lately, obviously. Why is that? Is it because I don’t want to reflect on my feelings? There are some things I have to confront. One is, I don’t know if I like Kat; she is turning out to be way too judgemental for me to put up with. I’ve been very glad of not seeing her much lately, but I don’t know, maybe this is just a phase of friendship all relationships go through. Also, I have been spending a lot of time on Second Life talking, flirting and having sex with Gunnar, a guy I meet there. He showed me how to build things and we started having sex, all with Edels' knowledge and consent, but now I think I will have to call it off because I’m liking him too much - I’m actually becoming somewhat attracted to him, so I’ll have to tell him no more sex. See, I’m only coming to this realisation as I type now. And to tell you the truth, the only reason I’m blogging now is because I couldn’t get onto SL as their server is down. Not that I was logging on to see Gunner - I had no intention of seeing him, I just wanted to make a quick new house I have in my head called Cloud 9. But now I have to tell Edels my realisations about Gunnar. I have been doing more then just sexing with Gunner, though - I’ve been building houses. I’m hoping to sell them on SL, which will hopefully lead to RL (real life) money; we’ll see. Edels might ban me. No, just joking; I know he will understand. But he is just so stressed lately. Should I wait until he is a bit better? Probably; then I can also report what happened. I definitely can’t be sexing Gunnar anymore. Anyway, I think that is enough for now. I don’t have the energy for any more.