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In about 6 hrs I board a flight to see my family.
My brother is picking me up at the airport.
My mom has to do business. I wouldn't call her a business woman. But I know she's scared as hell to be poor the rest of her life, and I know alot of things take the back seat.
It's hard knowing this. I'm ok with it. But I have to explain to myself that she's just trying to get prosperious before she's to old. That she's just trying to get comfortable.
Even if it means not picking me up and apologizing for that fact.
Even if it means not seeing her while I'm there very often because she's running around.
That in a round about way, the reason I don't get to spend as much time as I'd like with her on this trip, is so she feels secure enough in the future to have a house where she can afford to feed her family when they visit.
That she's doing this now, so when I'm older and have my own kids, she can visit and she won't have to live off any of us.
I can see that. It's hard, and it hurts a little. But I can see it.
My brother is picking me up at the airport.
My mom has to do business. I wouldn't call her a business woman. But I know she's scared as hell to be poor the rest of her life, and I know alot of things take the back seat.
It's hard knowing this. I'm ok with it. But I have to explain to myself that she's just trying to get prosperious before she's to old. That she's just trying to get comfortable.
Even if it means not picking me up and apologizing for that fact.
Even if it means not seeing her while I'm there very often because she's running around.
That in a round about way, the reason I don't get to spend as much time as I'd like with her on this trip, is so she feels secure enough in the future to have a house where she can afford to feed her family when they visit.
That she's doing this now, so when I'm older and have my own kids, she can visit and she won't have to live off any of us.
I can see that. It's hard, and it hurts a little. But I can see it.