i hate my life
well today i was realizing on my way to school how fucked up my life really is i noticied how my dad isnt feeling well my friends are starting to become a friend but yet i still find a way to keep my head up high yet i am dying inside and when someone tries to talk to me i just turn away from them or turn off my phone . gosh what the fuck did i do to deserve this my family always says shane u have the easy life u get anything u want and u still find a way to complain, maybe it is because i am not happy i found out that a friend that i really started to get close to did a 180 and made a lie about me in the conversation with a boy she knew for 30 min. i got yelled at for something i never said about one of my friends because her gay ass brother wanted to piss her off i have a friend who is pissed at me for calling her pissy and bitchy even though thats what she sounded like and since i thought we were close it wouldnt bug her to the point were she made up msn names about me but it is ok i would rather be alone in all of these situations because it is not like they will pay attention to what i will say. i guess i just like being alone u never have to worry about anything or anyone like i do with my friends. i guess sometimes i worry to much and it just overbears me. i guess we will see how this week turn out to be.