that's just the way it is....

[shan419]

I haven't written in a very long time and for that I am sorry... I really tried to keep this thing updated, but school and life just wouldn't allow it. So much has changed since I last time I wrote, I wouldn't even know where to begin to start. I'm graduating on Thursday, and though I should be exceptionally happy that I'm finally getting out of Temple, I made a lot of great friends this semester and it really sucks to be leaving them....just one more semester would be nice (since they will be graduating then). I'm not ready to graduate. I'm such a procrastinator and haven't even begun all the shit I should have done. But I did email the Phillies about a volunteer opportunity that I'm really hoping could lead to a paying position. I just feel like I'm so stuck in life and I don't know what to do about it. Everyone else can just easily move on and I'm stuck in a rut that feels like I'll never dig myself out of. I don't like change. It's unsettling and nerve-wracking. It's exciting, but scary. And I don't know what's going on, but I haven't been sleeping lately. I feel like I'm becoming an insomniac. I don't think I've been to bed before 2:00 in the past two weeks, and even then I just lay there awake. I'm so bored with this life. Can someone give me a new one please?

Anyway, I'll talk to ya later...and see ya at the Spectrum in the fall if you're going to see New Kids on the Block :D with love and frustrating life situation, Shannon