More than Words
Hey Everyone
Well tonight was really interesting I hung out with Marc again I don't know why I still hang out with him but he called me so I didn't look for it. We went to Walmart to get things for a dance we are going to a preference dance together but not with eachother cuz my Marc can't dance so I asked Spencer he is my dancing partner. Marc is taking Carmen. Poor Marc stabbed himself with a knife today when he was cutting something his hand is in a lot of pain. I hope he has his tetanus shot. I love Marc so much but it is really sad, ever since him and Breanna broke up he is not the same guy anymore. Like is it bad to say that I would totally kiss him if the opportunity arose but the poor boy is so dense. Like he is trying to block love out of his life and that is not cool at all. I can see him getting farther away from those that truly love him. He is confused because of the whole Abby thing. It is weird because when I hold his hand he will hold mine back for a little and then I think he realizes that he is letting emotion in and he gets scared. I really want him to be happy. He deserves so much after all he has been through in his life. I hope he realizes what an amazing man he is. To me he might joke with me but he actually cares. It reminds me of my Ex Joel in a way because that is the way he would care for me before we dated or even were boyfriend and girlfriend (all 5 days of that). And even before all the fighting started. I can say that Joel doesn't occupy so much of my time anymore. The sad thing is that I really want to be his friend and I understand that he was my first love but I still want to see him get married to whoever it is and be happy because even though he is being an ass right now he is a good man. I am going to ignore him thought I do have something that I owe him but I will give it to his Aunt since I see her all the time.
Joels Aunt Becky is so awesome we talk a lot probably because we work together (shhhhh Joel doesn't know that). I don't want him to think that I am just trying to get close to him because I am not I needed the Job and his Aunt said that I should work there with her. Anyways, she tells me eventhough Joel is my nephew you deserve better. She says he won't change and she is totally right about that. I definitely am getting over Joel but it is taking some time. I don't know what I would do if he came back in though. I really think I would tell him no. I don't think he loves me anymore but then again I do but I don't know if it is an honest love.
Well I got school in the morning.
I am taking
Women in Society
Computer Information Systems
Psycology
Choir--we are singing the Makado I am so excited I am trying out for Pitti-Sing :)
Orchestra
Salsa Arobics
Laters,
Shamady
P.S. Would it be bad to say I want to suck on Marcs dick too. :P
Well tonight was really interesting I hung out with Marc again I don't know why I still hang out with him but he called me so I didn't look for it. We went to Walmart to get things for a dance we are going to a preference dance together but not with eachother cuz my Marc can't dance so I asked Spencer he is my dancing partner. Marc is taking Carmen. Poor Marc stabbed himself with a knife today when he was cutting something his hand is in a lot of pain. I hope he has his tetanus shot. I love Marc so much but it is really sad, ever since him and Breanna broke up he is not the same guy anymore. Like is it bad to say that I would totally kiss him if the opportunity arose but the poor boy is so dense. Like he is trying to block love out of his life and that is not cool at all. I can see him getting farther away from those that truly love him. He is confused because of the whole Abby thing. It is weird because when I hold his hand he will hold mine back for a little and then I think he realizes that he is letting emotion in and he gets scared. I really want him to be happy. He deserves so much after all he has been through in his life. I hope he realizes what an amazing man he is. To me he might joke with me but he actually cares. It reminds me of my Ex Joel in a way because that is the way he would care for me before we dated or even were boyfriend and girlfriend (all 5 days of that). And even before all the fighting started. I can say that Joel doesn't occupy so much of my time anymore. The sad thing is that I really want to be his friend and I understand that he was my first love but I still want to see him get married to whoever it is and be happy because even though he is being an ass right now he is a good man. I am going to ignore him thought I do have something that I owe him but I will give it to his Aunt since I see her all the time.
Joels Aunt Becky is so awesome we talk a lot probably because we work together (shhhhh Joel doesn't know that). I don't want him to think that I am just trying to get close to him because I am not I needed the Job and his Aunt said that I should work there with her. Anyways, she tells me eventhough Joel is my nephew you deserve better. She says he won't change and she is totally right about that. I definitely am getting over Joel but it is taking some time. I don't know what I would do if he came back in though. I really think I would tell him no. I don't think he loves me anymore but then again I do but I don't know if it is an honest love.
Well I got school in the morning.
I am taking
Women in Society
Computer Information Systems
Psycology
Choir--we are singing the Makado I am so excited I am trying out for Pitti-Sing :)
Orchestra
Salsa Arobics
Laters,
Shamady
P.S. Would it be bad to say I want to suck on Marcs dick too. :P