Aug 18, 2004 03:11
Life is full of choices. Every choice that we make, we take a risk. Sometimes we win, sometimes we lose. But only we are responsible for the choices we make. The only control anybody really has in life is over themselves, and the choices they make. Nobody makes who we are but ourselves. Some people experience alot of rough things, some people not as much. But we all have our problems. We've all been hurt, all cried. We've all felt alone. It's not what happens to us that makes us who we are, but how we deal with what happens to us.
Some people have had it much harder than others. But that doesn't give them the right to treat others badly or hurt people. Whether you got dumped by your boyfriend/girlfriend, or grew up as a molested and raped orphan, you're still responsible for your own actions. You still have the choice to deal with it, and become stronger, or to dwell on it and use it as an excuse for being irresponsible, because you're too weak or afraid to grow up and push on. In which case, you're only weak and afraid because you choose to be.
I tell this to myself, because I catch myself feeling like I'm worthless and don't see the point in trying. I have to remind myself that I'm strong. I'm only worthless if I feel worthless. And no one can make me feel that way but myself. So I write this down so that I can't ignore it... and maybe some other people could do to hear it too.
The last two years of my life have been tough, to say the least. But it won't weaken me. It only makes me stronger. The obstacles have become much bigger, but as long as I push on, they only strengthen me.
My obstacles may be bigger than yours, or smaller than yours. It doesn't really make a difference, because we're all fighting just as hard. No one else can save you, no one else can make things better. If you choose to give up, or fight on, it's only your choice to make.
reflections,
opinions... only mine matter.