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I just sent an email to my boss at camp saying I'm not going to be working there this summer.
So it's final... I'm going to be in the city this summer, working where I do not know, I have some prospects but it'll be interesting to see what ends up happening. Even if I end up working somewhere shitty, I don't really care, the point is I will be downtown, for the first time ever in my life, and maybe the last time since I'm going to school far away next year.
I feel really good about this. I think that working at camp again this summer would have just made me frustrated and bitter, and those are two ways I don't want to feel about camp. I feel like I got everything I could out of it, and that I contributed to it and made it a better place. I think that trying to push it harder in the direction I want it to go in, which is what I would have been doing if I had worked there this summer as head counsellor, would have just made me angry and gotten nowhere. I've had some of the best times of my life at camp, made a lot of my best friends and my best memories there. It's time to move upwards and onwards and let it be a positive memory to hold onto for the rest of my life. It's hard not to be totally cheesy when you're talking about camp.
And I'm so, so, so very excited for this summer. So excited that I am finding it hard to concentrate on my giant, intimidating, 20 page research essay on the gendered implications of Quebec nationalism. Focus Claire... 5moremonths to freedom.
So it's final... I'm going to be in the city this summer, working where I do not know, I have some prospects but it'll be interesting to see what ends up happening. Even if I end up working somewhere shitty, I don't really care, the point is I will be downtown, for the first time ever in my life, and maybe the last time since I'm going to school far away next year.
I feel really good about this. I think that working at camp again this summer would have just made me frustrated and bitter, and those are two ways I don't want to feel about camp. I feel like I got everything I could out of it, and that I contributed to it and made it a better place. I think that trying to push it harder in the direction I want it to go in, which is what I would have been doing if I had worked there this summer as head counsellor, would have just made me angry and gotten nowhere. I've had some of the best times of my life at camp, made a lot of my best friends and my best memories there. It's time to move upwards and onwards and let it be a positive memory to hold onto for the rest of my life. It's hard not to be totally cheesy when you're talking about camp.
And I'm so, so, so very excited for this summer. So excited that I am finding it hard to concentrate on my giant, intimidating, 20 page research essay on the gendered implications of Quebec nationalism. Focus Claire... 5moremonths to freedom.