Lonely Restitution...
I made a friend today, I like her so much. I know this, I have since I met her. My birthday is near, What I wouldn't do to slice a year from my life. Its hard for me to remember times before tonight. Every night recalls certain despair that tends to let me forget. I want to sleep right now. It seems to be the only thing I can keep to my self. Even if I try to keep to myself I tend to be robbed of what I know. I feel like I've been lifted off my feet right now, as if I cant feel a thing. Maybe Im dying...(5 mins later) guess not, I tried. Today I drove for like 30 minutes to get home... even if I was only 3 minutes away, I took a thoughtful detour, I thought about things and pondered finding a cliff to escapade off of. It gets crazy sometimes. New places I havent been seem to be so free of hassle. I wish I could be totally alone for about 6 weeks, just me and nothing... Today I held a match until the flame reached my finger, I didnt let go. I let it go out on my finger. The ash left made for good conversation. Fire is such a beautiful sound... But ashes can just fall to the ground. The smell of sulfur is so clear. Sometimes I wish simple things could just be so much more complex... I have no trouble with knowing the things I know. Im lucid and departed... Im so left behind... Away with it all I guess. Shook down and away. I want to marry a role of foreverness, I want to have something in mind every morning when I wake and I want that something to be..... I dont know. I just want something more. Why do I have to be alone inside. During the crowdly excepted days I dream of being something Im not. I dont know I day dream I guess of being away from everything I know. I wonder if there is a end to the earth and how I could find it, Maybe I could jump off and be alone and surrounded all at once, you never know. I dont want to stop what I have by now. Because by now I should be... I dont know. Hey here is a topic, Everyone go and see Wicker park, and tell me what you think in the Comment post. I love that movie, I like it better then The Notebook... I dont have much else to write, I want to go to sleep, but someone is keeping me here, But its ok cause I love her...