Wrung out.
Today was not a good day. And it started off so promising. Ive been sleeping great and starting to wake up early since ive been sleeping alone. More confirmation that my fucked up sleep schedule comes from outside pressures.
I want to live alone. So so so badly. Im having Big Feelings about some medical stuff. Mostly about resenting this act i have to play around doctors where i pretend im not a biologist.
House stuff happened that was not good. Hours of snide comments about me leaving messes,taking up to much space, the new fridge went from a joyful think to a punitive one because how dare I take up space, be a woman, or cook in this house. I dont know how long i can handle living here.
Brandys ok. Still cone of shame. But its healing.
Cooking and gardening are pretty much it for me right now.
My mom gave me a 'helpful' science soundsing spiel about how alternative relationships are bad and monogamy is good. Ugh.
Time to shut my brain off as im having trouble keeping my eyes open
I want to live alone. So so so badly. Im having Big Feelings about some medical stuff. Mostly about resenting this act i have to play around doctors where i pretend im not a biologist.
House stuff happened that was not good. Hours of snide comments about me leaving messes,taking up to much space, the new fridge went from a joyful think to a punitive one because how dare I take up space, be a woman, or cook in this house. I dont know how long i can handle living here.
Brandys ok. Still cone of shame. But its healing.
Cooking and gardening are pretty much it for me right now.
My mom gave me a 'helpful' science soundsing spiel about how alternative relationships are bad and monogamy is good. Ugh.
Time to shut my brain off as im having trouble keeping my eyes open