5 Years later, my LJ lives!
First of all, I can't even believe that LJ still exists. I may need to review my posts from 5 years ago. I don't know where to begin or where to end, but here goes nothing.
Love:
Right now the only real love life prospect is Stef. We've been hanging out a lot as friends and we get along really well. Normally I'd be bothered that she drinks or even by other things about her, but I'm not. Despite our differences we've been able to go out and have fun alone or with friends both new and old. This weekend she's in Arizona for a wedding and I feel a little lost without her. Next weekend I'm going up to Maine and I'm hoping that she feels the same. I get a lot of blended messages from her (not so much mixed, but similar). She invites me out to hang out with a couple or makes dessert for Dexter Sundays and I can get a slow dance or duet out of her, but never so much as a hug goodbye. This may be my last attempt at love locally before I become a drifter. We'll see, but regardless, Stef and I really seem to work well together and I feel like it could work out.
Drifting:
I feel so trapped working well over 45 hours at least 6 days out of the week and needing to do it in order to keep my house. I'm waiting for the beginning of the year to roll around so that I may sell my house and leave my enslaving job. I'm a single man with no children, so why should I have so much responsibility? I don't need to have all these expenses. I just need happiness and no material possession will ever give me what I need out of life. I want to be free. I want to be able to spend my moments on this Earth with the people I love. I want to make memories with my friends and my family. Later in life I want to spend time with my wife and children. No amount of money can buy happiness. When I don't have the responsibility of the house I can leave my job, kick around a bit and maybe settle down in a humble life somewhere. I've been working for about 16 years of my life straight and I need a break from it all. I just hope I can make it to the day that I can sell my house. Stef is helping me get through this frustrating time by giving me a pleasant distraction.
-Places I would want to go:
Maine to spend a week or so with Sarah, Travis, etc. and have a real stay
Wisconsin/Illinois to see family, namely Kelly, Stacy and Ricky
Florida to see Aunt Eileen, Tasha, Holly and TNA wrestling at the Impact! Zone
Pennsylvania to pop in on Suzanne to see the Poconos and meet her little one
LA to see Uncle Buff, Aunt Lucille and little Buff
Connecticut to spend some time with Doug, Lori and the cousins
Uncle George's summer home in Maine to get away and relax for a bit
Texas to stay with cousin Diane and maybe meet up with Jill while down there
Safety nets:
On the combined topics of love and drifting comes the topic of a safety net. Safety nets are kind of like out options in the event the person you currently like (Stef at the moment) doesn't pan out or it's someone else to distract you from getting too caught up by one person. Having a safety net keeps you from putting all your eggs in one basket. It hurts a lot less if things don't pan out, but you know that there are other potential options out there. Here are some of mine:
-Maine: I've always felt like if I moved up to Maine with Travis and Sarah, I would find a girl somewhere. Between their friends and the area being more friendly than around here, I feel like I would have some luck. I like going up to Maine and wouldn't mind having family to hang out with.
-Jess S: There's always been a question mark with me about Jess S in the clique. She's moving to AZ for at least 6 months, so if I start to drift, I may have to track her down and spend some time with her. There's just something different about her. She is part of the clique, but she also seems to have a classy side tucked away in her that might make her as suitable for me as Stef is.
-Ashland: There are plenty of cute girls in Ashland that come around. Is it likely that anything happens? No. But if things fall through with Stef before I leave my job, something may happen. I'm honestly not really interested in Jess N and while I find it appealing that Wined secretly likes my eyes and all, I realize Wined is probably not my best option. It seems the moral of my current love life is "Opposites attract" though.
Work:
My store is getting in order, but I do need to get rid of a few people. Namely Marc, Alejandro and Sandra, but once we get Eduardo trained, we should be in pretty good shape realistically.
OK, I think I've sufficiently fed my need to rant for now...
Love:
Right now the only real love life prospect is Stef. We've been hanging out a lot as friends and we get along really well. Normally I'd be bothered that she drinks or even by other things about her, but I'm not. Despite our differences we've been able to go out and have fun alone or with friends both new and old. This weekend she's in Arizona for a wedding and I feel a little lost without her. Next weekend I'm going up to Maine and I'm hoping that she feels the same. I get a lot of blended messages from her (not so much mixed, but similar). She invites me out to hang out with a couple or makes dessert for Dexter Sundays and I can get a slow dance or duet out of her, but never so much as a hug goodbye. This may be my last attempt at love locally before I become a drifter. We'll see, but regardless, Stef and I really seem to work well together and I feel like it could work out.
Drifting:
I feel so trapped working well over 45 hours at least 6 days out of the week and needing to do it in order to keep my house. I'm waiting for the beginning of the year to roll around so that I may sell my house and leave my enslaving job. I'm a single man with no children, so why should I have so much responsibility? I don't need to have all these expenses. I just need happiness and no material possession will ever give me what I need out of life. I want to be free. I want to be able to spend my moments on this Earth with the people I love. I want to make memories with my friends and my family. Later in life I want to spend time with my wife and children. No amount of money can buy happiness. When I don't have the responsibility of the house I can leave my job, kick around a bit and maybe settle down in a humble life somewhere. I've been working for about 16 years of my life straight and I need a break from it all. I just hope I can make it to the day that I can sell my house. Stef is helping me get through this frustrating time by giving me a pleasant distraction.
-Places I would want to go:
Maine to spend a week or so with Sarah, Travis, etc. and have a real stay
Wisconsin/Illinois to see family, namely Kelly, Stacy and Ricky
Florida to see Aunt Eileen, Tasha, Holly and TNA wrestling at the Impact! Zone
Pennsylvania to pop in on Suzanne to see the Poconos and meet her little one
LA to see Uncle Buff, Aunt Lucille and little Buff
Connecticut to spend some time with Doug, Lori and the cousins
Uncle George's summer home in Maine to get away and relax for a bit
Texas to stay with cousin Diane and maybe meet up with Jill while down there
Safety nets:
On the combined topics of love and drifting comes the topic of a safety net. Safety nets are kind of like out options in the event the person you currently like (Stef at the moment) doesn't pan out or it's someone else to distract you from getting too caught up by one person. Having a safety net keeps you from putting all your eggs in one basket. It hurts a lot less if things don't pan out, but you know that there are other potential options out there. Here are some of mine:
-Maine: I've always felt like if I moved up to Maine with Travis and Sarah, I would find a girl somewhere. Between their friends and the area being more friendly than around here, I feel like I would have some luck. I like going up to Maine and wouldn't mind having family to hang out with.
-Jess S: There's always been a question mark with me about Jess S in the clique. She's moving to AZ for at least 6 months, so if I start to drift, I may have to track her down and spend some time with her. There's just something different about her. She is part of the clique, but she also seems to have a classy side tucked away in her that might make her as suitable for me as Stef is.
-Ashland: There are plenty of cute girls in Ashland that come around. Is it likely that anything happens? No. But if things fall through with Stef before I leave my job, something may happen. I'm honestly not really interested in Jess N and while I find it appealing that Wined secretly likes my eyes and all, I realize Wined is probably not my best option. It seems the moral of my current love life is "Opposites attract" though.
Work:
My store is getting in order, but I do need to get rid of a few people. Namely Marc, Alejandro and Sandra, but once we get Eduardo trained, we should be in pretty good shape realistically.
OK, I think I've sufficiently fed my need to rant for now...