A blast from a murky past
Though I've been silent so long I know I've lost a couple of new friends that I made. I'm going to attempt to reach out to them so hopefully it'll all be okay.
That said, anyone who suddenly thinks 'where did she come from' when this post pops up on your feed, I'm that person you added from a friending meme a few weeks ago. I was posting regularly and then Life happened and a few things threw me for a loop, and writing on here seemed to be the last thing I wanted. Socially interacting, bar my family and partner, seemed far too hard a thing to do. So I hermited*. If I had any doubt over the veracity of admitting I suffer from anxiety [which I had, to a certain extent] the past month has shown that I do indeed suffer from it, and I need to try and put strategies in place to deal with it.
I started that top part over two years ago. In that time so much has changed about my life that it's scary. I've had the worst 18 months I think I could have, bar future times expected (many years hence), with bereavement, moving, unemployment, and discovering or more accurately understanding that I am autistic. It's all a bit much to take in, so I forgot about this place, again. I tried to reach out to three close friends and then promptly disappeared when things got too rough (I tried to do it too early and failed, miserably).
Now, I'd like to try again. So I'll do it quietly, posting as much as I can, about everything. And if you see this, and you once knew me, please say hello. I miss most of those I met on here a lot, but time dulls things for many. But here I am, and I'll stick around.
[I'm also attempting to sort out my photos and mood theme again. So those watermarks should disappear shortly…]
*This is an entirely legitimate term, coined by me now, and in common usage from hence on. [And as you can guess I love Terry Pratchett and the use of footnotes.]
That said, anyone who suddenly thinks 'where did she come from' when this post pops up on your feed, I'm that person you added from a friending meme a few weeks ago. I was posting regularly and then Life happened and a few things threw me for a loop, and writing on here seemed to be the last thing I wanted. Socially interacting, bar my family and partner, seemed far too hard a thing to do. So I hermited*. If I had any doubt over the veracity of admitting I suffer from anxiety [which I had, to a certain extent] the past month has shown that I do indeed suffer from it, and I need to try and put strategies in place to deal with it.
I started that top part over two years ago. In that time so much has changed about my life that it's scary. I've had the worst 18 months I think I could have, bar future times expected (many years hence), with bereavement, moving, unemployment, and discovering or more accurately understanding that I am autistic. It's all a bit much to take in, so I forgot about this place, again. I tried to reach out to three close friends and then promptly disappeared when things got too rough (I tried to do it too early and failed, miserably).
Now, I'd like to try again. So I'll do it quietly, posting as much as I can, about everything. And if you see this, and you once knew me, please say hello. I miss most of those I met on here a lot, but time dulls things for many. But here I am, and I'll stick around.
[I'm also attempting to sort out my photos and mood theme again. So those watermarks should disappear shortly…]
*This is an entirely legitimate term, coined by me now, and in common usage from hence on. [And as you can guess I love Terry Pratchett and the use of footnotes.]