Days off are the days I miss you the most
Well had a day off yesterday and today. And although it's nice having time to relax and sleep in...it also gives one idle time to think about things you like not to think about. Tuesday night I knew I was going to have the next day off. Before I went to sleep, the realization that would normally bring a smile to someone's face brought tears to mine. Because I knew I'd wake up that next morning all alone and have the entire day by myself. Most people would be excited, but with Essam so far away, this isn't getting easier. I miss him more each and every day, and I love him more each and every day. But I know when he comes, life will never have been so sweet.
We had a realization last night which I think has made everything that much harder. We never really have been alone for more than a couple hours. NEVER. If that. No wonder we're all stressed out! Normal couples who are jsut dating getting to spend tons of time alone, but honestly...we never ever ever ever have.
I lived in a small apartment in Cairo with two amazing roommates. Essam and I were always hanging out with the group. Our alone time was usually in a cafe downtown. "Alone" if you mean none of our friends were alone, but tons of strangers were. ahaha.
Then my brother came to visit before I went back, then my mom came on my visit to Cairo, then my dad...and then when my dad left...I got the flu and our romantic getaway finally alone weekend turned into me throwing up and doctor visits every couple hours. So much for "alone" Then we went back to Cairo and every day his family came over . I love them, but well...we never have gotten our much deserved alone time. Its been A WHOLE YEAR...NO...MORE THAN A YEAR NOW...since we have been together...and we have never ever ever gotten alone time. And for that we were bitter. Both of us were like...what a piece of junk!
So...when he comes...you'd better know...that if we have to go away for a weekend...damnit we will. Because I find it absurd that we have never gotten our own time to just enjoy eachother's company with no interuptions.
Here ends my rant. ahaha. :) Off to the gym to clear my head.
We had a realization last night which I think has made everything that much harder. We never really have been alone for more than a couple hours. NEVER. If that. No wonder we're all stressed out! Normal couples who are jsut dating getting to spend tons of time alone, but honestly...we never ever ever ever have.
I lived in a small apartment in Cairo with two amazing roommates. Essam and I were always hanging out with the group. Our alone time was usually in a cafe downtown. "Alone" if you mean none of our friends were alone, but tons of strangers were. ahaha.
Then my brother came to visit before I went back, then my mom came on my visit to Cairo, then my dad...and then when my dad left...I got the flu and our romantic getaway finally alone weekend turned into me throwing up and doctor visits every couple hours. So much for "alone" Then we went back to Cairo and every day his family came over . I love them, but well...we never have gotten our much deserved alone time. Its been A WHOLE YEAR...NO...MORE THAN A YEAR NOW...since we have been together...and we have never ever ever gotten alone time. And for that we were bitter. Both of us were like...what a piece of junk!
So...when he comes...you'd better know...that if we have to go away for a weekend...damnit we will. Because I find it absurd that we have never gotten our own time to just enjoy eachother's company with no interuptions.
Here ends my rant. ahaha. :) Off to the gym to clear my head.