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okay! sorry I didnt get the laundry done tonight...is it really that big of a deal? It seems like now that I hang out with other people I feel like I do everything wrong...why is that. There will be tomorrow. No sense in getting upset about it. Things came up I didnt realize you would be so mad that I went back over to finish the movie...I get so confused. I dont know what to do. Well I know what should be done and it will but one day things are peachie and the next...i dont know. I want you to be happy and make you happy still but I'm also working back on making myself more happy. I feel like everything I do is wrong or that I make you feel sad by hanging out with people while you are doing your homework. when in return if I stay home you hush me and want me to be quiet while you get your shit done..Id just be sitting there...yea, it is nice sometimes to sit there and chill even when you attention is on your homework...but Ive missed being able to hang out with people and talk to people while you do your homework...You know im still there for you when you need anything...but it has beena long time since i have been there for myself...and I feel like I need to work on that a little more...Im always so worried about others and making them happy that I need to worry a little more about me and making myself happier. Just because I hang out with friends doesnt mean you arent on the top of my list. I know I will never put myself on the top of my list but that is just how I am...at least I need to be in the top 10 or so though...So dont get mad or frustrated if you think im not paying attention to you...i just think its silly to sit there and do nothing while i could be hanging out with friends. so frustrated.
...the person this is too will never have a chance to read this but I needed to vent as if they were going to.
...blah- good night.
okay! sorry I didnt get the laundry done tonight...is it really that big of a deal? It seems like now that I hang out with other people I feel like I do everything wrong...why is that. There will be tomorrow. No sense in getting upset about it. Things came up I didnt realize you would be so mad that I went back over to finish the movie...I get so confused. I dont know what to do. Well I know what should be done and it will but one day things are peachie and the next...i dont know. I want you to be happy and make you happy still but I'm also working back on making myself more happy. I feel like everything I do is wrong or that I make you feel sad by hanging out with people while you are doing your homework. when in return if I stay home you hush me and want me to be quiet while you get your shit done..Id just be sitting there...yea, it is nice sometimes to sit there and chill even when you attention is on your homework...but Ive missed being able to hang out with people and talk to people while you do your homework...You know im still there for you when you need anything...but it has beena long time since i have been there for myself...and I feel like I need to work on that a little more...Im always so worried about others and making them happy that I need to worry a little more about me and making myself happier. Just because I hang out with friends doesnt mean you arent on the top of my list. I know I will never put myself on the top of my list but that is just how I am...at least I need to be in the top 10 or so though...So dont get mad or frustrated if you think im not paying attention to you...i just think its silly to sit there and do nothing while i could be hanging out with friends. so frustrated.
...the person this is too will never have a chance to read this but I needed to vent as if they were going to.
...blah- good night.