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im kind of forced to put up shit that i really dont want to. i do it, though, because of the situation. normally i wouldnt. normally i would say fuck it. but i guess its different when you have such a care for someone. i dont think ive ever felt this way before about anybody.
i just want to hibernate until all of this is worked out & things can be how the should. this is so much harder than i could ever imagine. ive cried so much. & its out of being genuinely sad. real sadness.
im in so deep. maybe im in over my head. i dont care. its worth it to me to be in some sort of mental anguish over this.
my mom told me not to get my hopes up.
nothing in my life makes sense right now. i sound like a god damn broken record.
i just want to hibernate until all of this is worked out & things can be how the should. this is so much harder than i could ever imagine. ive cried so much. & its out of being genuinely sad. real sadness.
im in so deep. maybe im in over my head. i dont care. its worth it to me to be in some sort of mental anguish over this.
my mom told me not to get my hopes up.
nothing in my life makes sense right now. i sound like a god damn broken record.