a prayer
dear God,
first thing's first. i need you. i didn't know that earlier this year. you're good about letting me know that. i miss you. we should definitely chat more often. yesterday in class i literally felt like i couldn't say another word without feeling your presence, so i put my head down and begged you to put your arms around me. thanks for following up on that. i feel like i talk so much on my lappy, so why not write a letter to you on my lappy? you still hear the cries of my heart. you don't care whether i put you in CAPS or if i keep your you's in lower case. you dont care if i'm not perfect in my grammar or if i miss a letter. you just wanna hear from me. and that's what matters. i figured also if my readers see a prayer in my journal they might be encouraged. i felt like i pour my life out on here so i want to pour my life out to you.
i'm not sure why you've done a lot of things in my life recently. i'm not sure why my relationship with my parents have changed from hardly saying anything to dad to calling him almost every day. i'm not sure why me and mom dont really get along anymore. i'm not sure why you brought matt into my life. i'm not sure why rachael is ready to get married. i'm not sure why april and i are so close. i'm not sure why gary is no longer anything to me anymore. i'm not sure why i'm not doing as well in my classes this semester. i'm not sure why i'm listening to hootie and the blowfish right now. i'm just not sure...
but i like it.
thank you for showing me your glory this year, father. thank you for taking out relationships in my life that were unhealthy. thank you for being my daddy and giving me such a strong relationship with my earthly father. i need that, Jesus. thank you for sending me away from my family, even though its sad i need to know who i am apart from them and you knew that. you know me more than i know myself. you know that i'm using you right now to distract me from my paper, but i dont think you care. you know i need to talk to you like this more often. thanks for sending me to florida, you couldn't have picked a better spot;) thank you for best friends like april, **** ***e, traci, kenny, brian, carolyn, and alli. thanx for a new roomate, she's awesome. thanx for mrs. amy and the breakfast we had the other day, what a wakeup call. people are watching me! thanx for giving me people who love me for who i am and for who you made me to be.
thanx that things didnt work out with those boys that aren't good for me. thanx for matt. i'm not sure what's going to happen, but you sure know how to spice life up a little when you want to. please take him away from me if you don't want him to be in my life, Jesus.
i want to be closer to you. i want to have motives to be closer to you. if that takes something horrible to happen in my life, let it happen. not that i want something horrible to happen, but i want to be closer to you.
please help things to go well with the rest of Uncle Bill's passing away stuff go smoothly. please be with ben deal while he's away doin' the marine thing. please be with jamie and his new gf. please be with my friends at cca and their college decisions. please be with carolyn and chuck, rachael and ryan, april and brian, keelan and maria, traci and morgan, and kenny and katie as they make some serious decisions as couples. please be with daniel, as this is a serious time in his life as he is being molded into your child.
please be with daniel. i love him to death and i know its hard for him alone with mom and dad. please be with daniel. daniel, daniel, daniel....
Almighty God, direct me in your ways. i need you.
Longing to be in Your Presence,
Julie Anne
first thing's first. i need you. i didn't know that earlier this year. you're good about letting me know that. i miss you. we should definitely chat more often. yesterday in class i literally felt like i couldn't say another word without feeling your presence, so i put my head down and begged you to put your arms around me. thanks for following up on that. i feel like i talk so much on my lappy, so why not write a letter to you on my lappy? you still hear the cries of my heart. you don't care whether i put you in CAPS or if i keep your you's in lower case. you dont care if i'm not perfect in my grammar or if i miss a letter. you just wanna hear from me. and that's what matters. i figured also if my readers see a prayer in my journal they might be encouraged. i felt like i pour my life out on here so i want to pour my life out to you.
i'm not sure why you've done a lot of things in my life recently. i'm not sure why my relationship with my parents have changed from hardly saying anything to dad to calling him almost every day. i'm not sure why me and mom dont really get along anymore. i'm not sure why you brought matt into my life. i'm not sure why rachael is ready to get married. i'm not sure why april and i are so close. i'm not sure why gary is no longer anything to me anymore. i'm not sure why i'm not doing as well in my classes this semester. i'm not sure why i'm listening to hootie and the blowfish right now. i'm just not sure...
but i like it.
thank you for showing me your glory this year, father. thank you for taking out relationships in my life that were unhealthy. thank you for being my daddy and giving me such a strong relationship with my earthly father. i need that, Jesus. thank you for sending me away from my family, even though its sad i need to know who i am apart from them and you knew that. you know me more than i know myself. you know that i'm using you right now to distract me from my paper, but i dont think you care. you know i need to talk to you like this more often. thanks for sending me to florida, you couldn't have picked a better spot;) thank you for best friends like april, **** ***e, traci, kenny, brian, carolyn, and alli. thanx for a new roomate, she's awesome. thanx for mrs. amy and the breakfast we had the other day, what a wakeup call. people are watching me! thanx for giving me people who love me for who i am and for who you made me to be.
thanx that things didnt work out with those boys that aren't good for me. thanx for matt. i'm not sure what's going to happen, but you sure know how to spice life up a little when you want to. please take him away from me if you don't want him to be in my life, Jesus.
i want to be closer to you. i want to have motives to be closer to you. if that takes something horrible to happen in my life, let it happen. not that i want something horrible to happen, but i want to be closer to you.
please help things to go well with the rest of Uncle Bill's passing away stuff go smoothly. please be with ben deal while he's away doin' the marine thing. please be with jamie and his new gf. please be with my friends at cca and their college decisions. please be with carolyn and chuck, rachael and ryan, april and brian, keelan and maria, traci and morgan, and kenny and katie as they make some serious decisions as couples. please be with daniel, as this is a serious time in his life as he is being molded into your child.
please be with daniel. i love him to death and i know its hard for him alone with mom and dad. please be with daniel. daniel, daniel, daniel....
Almighty God, direct me in your ways. i need you.
Longing to be in Your Presence,
Julie Anne