vidya gaems
I love videogames.
But I must admit, I do not love them as much as I did when I was in middle school and high school. It's a damn expensive hobby to have these days, and I don't have the money to enjoy this hobby.
But I'm sure you're thinking, "Wait, you hypocrite, you have money. Just look at your last journal where you spent 44 dollars on stuff from Borders and Hastings?"
And you're probably right to think that. But I just finally want to explain why I have not bought anything via Steam or just videogames in general.
1) I do not have any money of my own since that hobo stole my $60 that was in my purse. Later, mom gave me some cash to use for whatever I may want or need at college. So right now, all the money I've spent is my mom's. Do I want to tell her "Hey mom, I used this money to buy VIDYA GAEMS! LOOK HOW RESPONSIBLE I AM!" or anything similar? No. I don't.
See, my mom doesn't mind if I go on a shopping spree every so often when hanging out with friends. As a woman, she understands. But I know she does not like it when I blow money all in one spot. Especially on something she dislikes, such as videogames.
2) I also have a credit card, yes. But for this, I have to pay my parents back for everything I spend on it. So I generally don't use it very often unless I know for sure I can pay my mom back. Once again, I'm sure she does not want to see anything like "Steam" or "GameStop" or "FYE" on the card statement when it comes in the mail each month, with a charge of something around $10-$40. It would make her very unhappy.
3) As mentioned before, I just do not dedicate that much time to videogames anymore. That being said, I am not willing to spend very much money on them for that reason. Why buy something that I won't play very often?
4) I don't like computer games for two reasons. One, they take up space on my laptop's harddrive, which I have to use for rendering complex models in high-end programs like Maya and 3DStudio. And two, programs downloaded from Steam or the internet are intangible, and I prefer having a disc or cartridge in my hand that physically proves that I own something. So I try to have as few of them as possible. I honestly prefer console games by far for both reasons. Granted, there's the advantage that my roommate can't steal my fucking disc if all that information is on some server somewhere, but I'm convinced the disadvantages outweigh the bright side by too much.
5) Videogames are not cheap. I would rather spend my money on multiple items than on a single item that I won't play often. And like I said, it makes mother happier to know I'm not wasting my money on videogames. Each one of my friends wants me to buy a different videogame or set of videogames, and I know I cannot afford to buy all of that. So instead I'm choosing to buy none at all.
So yeah.
Diego, April, Ezra, Michelle, Aryn? I apologize to all of you. But now you know why I keep putting off buying the great games that you've recommended. I'm tired of making excuses, so I'm just going to leave it at this: buying videogames does not fit into my budget of responsibility right now. Maybe it will someday. But I just ask of you guys to be a little bit more patient, because videogames aren't as important to me as they are to you guys. Especially Diego, Ezra, and Michelle, since you guys are MAJORING in videogame production. And especially April, because I know how super-ultra badly you want to play Steam games online with me.
I'm really sorry, since I know how badly the four of you want me to game with you guys, but each one of you wants me to buy a different game, and that makes things more difficult. I can't afford StarCraft II, Portal 2, Team Fortress 2, Call of Duty, and Dead Space all at the same time. And I'm not going to pick and choose between who is the most important person to play games with, because I don't play favorites anymore. If I were to calculate the approximate price of all those games, it would be almost $175 dollars worth of games. Just videogames.
I hope you all will understand. I think I've explained myself well enough.
<3
But I must admit, I do not love them as much as I did when I was in middle school and high school. It's a damn expensive hobby to have these days, and I don't have the money to enjoy this hobby.
But I'm sure you're thinking, "Wait, you hypocrite, you have money. Just look at your last journal where you spent 44 dollars on stuff from Borders and Hastings?"
And you're probably right to think that. But I just finally want to explain why I have not bought anything via Steam or just videogames in general.
1) I do not have any money of my own since that hobo stole my $60 that was in my purse. Later, mom gave me some cash to use for whatever I may want or need at college. So right now, all the money I've spent is my mom's. Do I want to tell her "Hey mom, I used this money to buy VIDYA GAEMS! LOOK HOW RESPONSIBLE I AM!" or anything similar? No. I don't.
See, my mom doesn't mind if I go on a shopping spree every so often when hanging out with friends. As a woman, she understands. But I know she does not like it when I blow money all in one spot. Especially on something she dislikes, such as videogames.
2) I also have a credit card, yes. But for this, I have to pay my parents back for everything I spend on it. So I generally don't use it very often unless I know for sure I can pay my mom back. Once again, I'm sure she does not want to see anything like "Steam" or "GameStop" or "FYE" on the card statement when it comes in the mail each month, with a charge of something around $10-$40. It would make her very unhappy.
3) As mentioned before, I just do not dedicate that much time to videogames anymore. That being said, I am not willing to spend very much money on them for that reason. Why buy something that I won't play very often?
4) I don't like computer games for two reasons. One, they take up space on my laptop's harddrive, which I have to use for rendering complex models in high-end programs like Maya and 3DStudio. And two, programs downloaded from Steam or the internet are intangible, and I prefer having a disc or cartridge in my hand that physically proves that I own something. So I try to have as few of them as possible. I honestly prefer console games by far for both reasons. Granted, there's the advantage that my roommate can't steal my fucking disc if all that information is on some server somewhere, but I'm convinced the disadvantages outweigh the bright side by too much.
5) Videogames are not cheap. I would rather spend my money on multiple items than on a single item that I won't play often. And like I said, it makes mother happier to know I'm not wasting my money on videogames. Each one of my friends wants me to buy a different videogame or set of videogames, and I know I cannot afford to buy all of that. So instead I'm choosing to buy none at all.
So yeah.
Diego, April, Ezra, Michelle, Aryn? I apologize to all of you. But now you know why I keep putting off buying the great games that you've recommended. I'm tired of making excuses, so I'm just going to leave it at this: buying videogames does not fit into my budget of responsibility right now. Maybe it will someday. But I just ask of you guys to be a little bit more patient, because videogames aren't as important to me as they are to you guys. Especially Diego, Ezra, and Michelle, since you guys are MAJORING in videogame production. And especially April, because I know how super-ultra badly you want to play Steam games online with me.
I'm really sorry, since I know how badly the four of you want me to game with you guys, but each one of you wants me to buy a different game, and that makes things more difficult. I can't afford StarCraft II, Portal 2, Team Fortress 2, Call of Duty, and Dead Space all at the same time. And I'm not going to pick and choose between who is the most important person to play games with, because I don't play favorites anymore. If I were to calculate the approximate price of all those games, it would be almost $175 dollars worth of games. Just videogames.
I hope you all will understand. I think I've explained myself well enough.
<3