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So, I'm on vacation. For one more week.
It's nice to have a break from school. I like school more now, but I think I'll always prefer home. I get to see faces that are more familiar to me than the ones that I see on a daily basis up at college. It's kind of sad that so many old relationships have faded, but I can really appreciate the people who I haven't let fall away from me. For instance, I haven't seen Chris for months even though we've been friends literally as far back as I can remember. Because we're both away at school now, I'm glad we can pick up our friendship after not talking for months (partially my fault. I have a problem initiating conversations. I barely do it with anyone).
I just finished watching Garden State. Whenever I watch it I'm always in a really weird, indescribable mood for a few days. It kind of serves as a catalyst for me to examine myself even though I'm not really like the main character in a lot of ways.
So I'm thinking that I'm really a boring person. I never do anything. I go to school and I play video games and I read and I listen to music and I sit around with people and I write run-on sentences. I really rarely do anything really unique or fun, though. I never even try to, so I only have myself to blame. I'm almost not a teenager anymore, and I've almost never had a spur-of-the-moment adventure.
I've been blaming my life on the fact that I got into Berklee and I couldn't go there. I've been dwelling on being forced into UMaine for too long. It's been getting a little better, because I've decided to go to Augusta next year for sure. I'll finally be able get started towards being a musician.
Actually, I just used UMaine as an excuse yet again. I could have started trying to be a musician a while ago. I just never make an effort. I can't just keep using my current status as an excuse to not try to change it.
Just because I don't have a direction doesn't mean i can't have a purpose.
Well, that's enough for now. I should probably be rambling in my own private journal. I should really invest in one.
Song of the Day-New Sland, The Shins
Thought of the Day-I miss when Fresh Prince was on Nick at Night all the time
~Justin "Blah" Miller
It's nice to have a break from school. I like school more now, but I think I'll always prefer home. I get to see faces that are more familiar to me than the ones that I see on a daily basis up at college. It's kind of sad that so many old relationships have faded, but I can really appreciate the people who I haven't let fall away from me. For instance, I haven't seen Chris for months even though we've been friends literally as far back as I can remember. Because we're both away at school now, I'm glad we can pick up our friendship after not talking for months (partially my fault. I have a problem initiating conversations. I barely do it with anyone).
I just finished watching Garden State. Whenever I watch it I'm always in a really weird, indescribable mood for a few days. It kind of serves as a catalyst for me to examine myself even though I'm not really like the main character in a lot of ways.
So I'm thinking that I'm really a boring person. I never do anything. I go to school and I play video games and I read and I listen to music and I sit around with people and I write run-on sentences. I really rarely do anything really unique or fun, though. I never even try to, so I only have myself to blame. I'm almost not a teenager anymore, and I've almost never had a spur-of-the-moment adventure.
I've been blaming my life on the fact that I got into Berklee and I couldn't go there. I've been dwelling on being forced into UMaine for too long. It's been getting a little better, because I've decided to go to Augusta next year for sure. I'll finally be able get started towards being a musician.
Actually, I just used UMaine as an excuse yet again. I could have started trying to be a musician a while ago. I just never make an effort. I can't just keep using my current status as an excuse to not try to change it.
Just because I don't have a direction doesn't mean i can't have a purpose.
Well, that's enough for now. I should probably be rambling in my own private journal. I should really invest in one.
Song of the Day-New Sland, The Shins
Thought of the Day-I miss when Fresh Prince was on Nick at Night all the time
~Justin "Blah" Miller