May 13, 2005 19:27
I didn't go to school today. How bad is this. We have a week and 1/2 to go & I'm at home all day. It's also because I didn't do my homework & I needed some Xtra time. You kno. Waiting for Orlando to call me. But he won't. N I kno it. So that makes me stupid. N I kno that too. But what else am I supposed to do? I don't get it.
Last time I talked to him it was yesterday for like 2 hrs. N he had to go out for some cigs. He said, "30 minutes baby," Humm I wonder if he realizes it's been like 12 hrs. I hope he knos I'm gonna get over his ass real quick. I hope.
It weird the people I'm attracted to. I always end up with the asses who treat me like shit. Although, he's not like that. I kno he's not I just think somethings going on. He's got the bad N the good & I think that's why I stay. I thought the good out weighed the bad. But right now I'm not so sure.
Blah. This is excatly why I don't fuck with relationships. I'm not into the whole lets work this shit out. I've never worked nething out in my life. I just dump it and move on. Hummm. That does explain alot about me. I don't want to do that here. I won't. But it's hard.
grrrrr.