Not Feeling The Christmas Spirit

[shady_heaven]

Okay, probably not many people are feeling less holiday cheer than I am right now.

For one thing, I had not a shiny penny to spend for presents this year.  Again.  I know that Christmas is more about feeling the spirit than the giving and getting, but I'm beginning to get rather sick of winding up in this predicament.  Good lord, I was able to

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[shady_heaven]

Hmm...cast-iron plan, that's pretty much what Jen's been saying. She's really been helping me out a lot, and, seriously, I *do* have plans - good ones - it's just that I worry that they won't work out right. Because I have the ingredients mixed together right, and the oven's warm enough, but I still have no guarantee I'm going to get good cookies. If that analogy makes any bit of sense.

Money isn't a problem. I'm not rich, or even comfortable, with the amount I'll be receiving, but I *can* surive off it, and that's without even counting the work-study I'm entitled to or the fact that, if I'm serious enough about it, there is something majorly, majorly wrong if I can't get a job *somewhere* with 4 months or more to play with. I mean, c'mon, the economy isn't *that* bad!

The age thing isn't getting me down as much anymore either: I mean, I can't change it, so why the hell am I even worrying about it? If I'm going to worry, why not worry about things I can impact? Ugh. This is a HUGE flaw of mine that I seriously need to improve: worrying about things that I can't control.

Heh, so you're living with your parents now then? By choice?

One way or another, I know I'll muddle through. ( Read my latest LJ post for more details ).