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i am feeling alarmingly better in comparison to yesterday.
alarmingly.
my moods switch far too often.
but i suppose i realize how lucky i am to have certain people in my life.
i love my mom.
i love my little sister.
i love all my friends, lindsay especially.
i love everyone for trying so hard to help me out all the damn time.
i really don't even deserve it.
i'm debating whether or not to go to lancaster.
i'd much prefer to stay home.
and by home, i mean in new jersey, in an empty house, with no one to tell me what the hell to do.
it would be wonderful.
and i have a feeling lancaster would be far more stress than it's worth.
plus, i may miss many an excellent opportunity.
speaking of which, tomorrow is going to be effing hysterical. beyond that. it's going to be epic.
anyway. i'm not forgetting yesterday. i'm still really not doing well.
but that, of course, in time, will pass, as do all things. i just really need to start motivating myself.
there are so many things that could.
i got a 100 on my calc test today and a 20/23 on my bio quiz.
things like that should be motivation.
like, for example, imagine how much better i could have done if i actually had eaten the night before and the morning of?
the same thing goes for just about everything else.
i need to do this.
i just need to.
and not for anyone else this time.
FOR ME.
fuck everyone else.
alarmingly.
my moods switch far too often.
but i suppose i realize how lucky i am to have certain people in my life.
i love my mom.
i love my little sister.
i love all my friends, lindsay especially.
i love everyone for trying so hard to help me out all the damn time.
i really don't even deserve it.
i'm debating whether or not to go to lancaster.
i'd much prefer to stay home.
and by home, i mean in new jersey, in an empty house, with no one to tell me what the hell to do.
it would be wonderful.
and i have a feeling lancaster would be far more stress than it's worth.
plus, i may miss many an excellent opportunity.
speaking of which, tomorrow is going to be effing hysterical. beyond that. it's going to be epic.
anyway. i'm not forgetting yesterday. i'm still really not doing well.
but that, of course, in time, will pass, as do all things. i just really need to start motivating myself.
there are so many things that could.
i got a 100 on my calc test today and a 20/23 on my bio quiz.
things like that should be motivation.
like, for example, imagine how much better i could have done if i actually had eaten the night before and the morning of?
the same thing goes for just about everything else.
i need to do this.
i just need to.
and not for anyone else this time.
FOR ME.
fuck everyone else.