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i hate that i lose everything i want to say the minute i sit down at my computer. because i've been feeling a whole bunch of things lately, and it's only during bus-rides up to campus or back home that know how to put them into words.
i won't lie; i'm not happy. i don't have the time or energy to explain everything right now. and i don't think i'll be able to answer justly if anyone asked. and i don't really think anyone could even guess if they tried. i could make a list of emotions i'm feeling right now, then address them later, but that would be too emo. and i've been too pathetically emo for about a week.
i can hold off severly negative emotions till appropriate. so the minute PCC was over, i allowed them to overcome me. and i've been a beast to be around ever since. Calvin can attest.
i. need. time. away. from. people. power. and i couldn't be sorrier to say.
i live on healthy distractions. absolutely live on them. like music. music used to be my life. i have to admit, though, that i've been severely out of the loop since becoming involved with People Power. PCC became my healthy distraction. now i'm not hyped up for Coachella, not as much as i should be. i know it'll be great once i get there. maybe it's good i go into it kinda mellow.
but i'll be at the People Power meeting this Wednesday; Chub and I said that that's when we should play First Impressions. and i can't wait. because part of why i've been so depressed are self-concept issues. so i'm fuckin' ready.
signing off-
i won't lie; i'm not happy. i don't have the time or energy to explain everything right now. and i don't think i'll be able to answer justly if anyone asked. and i don't really think anyone could even guess if they tried. i could make a list of emotions i'm feeling right now, then address them later, but that would be too emo. and i've been too pathetically emo for about a week.
i can hold off severly negative emotions till appropriate. so the minute PCC was over, i allowed them to overcome me. and i've been a beast to be around ever since. Calvin can attest.
i. need. time. away. from. people. power. and i couldn't be sorrier to say.
i live on healthy distractions. absolutely live on them. like music. music used to be my life. i have to admit, though, that i've been severely out of the loop since becoming involved with People Power. PCC became my healthy distraction. now i'm not hyped up for Coachella, not as much as i should be. i know it'll be great once i get there. maybe it's good i go into it kinda mellow.
but i'll be at the People Power meeting this Wednesday; Chub and I said that that's when we should play First Impressions. and i can't wait. because part of why i've been so depressed are self-concept issues. so i'm fuckin' ready.
signing off-