Why God?

[shadowserith]

I believe I am ill. I was awoken this morning at 5:30am. The only thing I felt was a pulling sensation in my stomach. Then immediately following was a, as I can only describe, "funky" taste in my mouth. I then realized that I was about to depart ways with the contents of my stomach, and rushed into my bathroom. I pondered upon what I was vomiting, seeing as I had not eaten since 10am yesterday. As I climbed back in bed with a terrible feeling overall, especially in my stomach, I thought, "maybe I should eat." But I dismissed it and attempted to fall back asleep. I tossed and turned for an hour, but alas, to no result. I then found myself wide awake staring out at the rising sky. I'm killing myself. No sleep, no food, no rest, over-stressed, over-worked, I am mentally and physically drained. All the pressure from school and work is cumbersome. I have so much on my mind, so much eating away at me. I need a break. I realize now that over my break, I only had a "break" for about 5 days. I am insationably tired. My roommate is only adding to my misery. His annoyances are peaking, and pissing me off. I want to help him always, but this is rediculous. After finishing a chat with Mandy last night, he then called 5 people asking for their opinion on wether or not he should break up with his girlfriend, so he can go out with someone in Houston. He is terribly dependent of me. Honestly, If I were not here, he would not be able to make it, and his mental instability would crack. Poor guy. He has intense rage issues and gets mad very easily. He argues with me over nothing. One good example from just yesterday was when while talking to one person about the potential break up, he said "oh, I forgot there are no mountains in Texas." I just said, "actually there are a few in the mountain and basin region and up north in the pan handle." He then turned quite violent and began to raise his voice at me, telling me there were no mountains in Texas. I didnt want to fight with him so I just said "Ok micah" Ill let it slide because he has the whole girlfriend thing going right now, but if he pulls some rage crap on me again, I wont stand for it. I feel sorry for his future wife. Another thing, when talking to a friend at work, this guy asked what quarters we were in. before I could respond Micah threw out there "We're in our 4th quarter." I wonder how he'll feel when he starts his first quarter. Well it is now 7am, and I think I better get some food in me before I die. I'll be heading out to the new Lakewood location in about 3 hours. Take it easy.

sueno suenos de ti
Alma pura, reina del cielo
corazon de oro
Vuelas en las nubes cai
Tu lluvia santa
Luna, Luna de miel
Que nunca, nunca se acaba