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Good morning, soccer than school.
Lunch was nice untill the 2nd half. Spent the 1st half outside with Caitlin. Came back inside for the 2nd half and spent my time with Katie. She asked me if i had kissed Caitlin any more than once; I said yes and she asked me if i was over her. I said, "in the sense that i don't want to go back out with you, yes. In the sense that it still greatly hurts me to hear about what you do with other guys, no"
So 5 minutes later she tells me about one of her little sexual "flings" with Chris Y. 5 fucking minutes after saying that. she apologises after i brought it up to her and after class she tries to turn everything around on me saying some shit that "You've done worse". Threw a bit of a fit. Broke my headphones. coundn't concentrate for the rest of the day. Texted her apologising for throwing a fit after soccer. she said alright.
I come home and say hey to her. she says hey then ignores me as usual. Says shes busy doing homework. She tells me not talk to her and informes me that she is in fact talking her heart out to Chris Y.
Why do i tourture myself so much?
Why do i hate myself so much?
I've got too many questions with no answers.
I hate how after everything i still hide my feelings.
I hate how i can't be myself.
I hate all of this.
I hate bitching like this, no one really cares to begin with.
Why do i bother?
Lunch was nice untill the 2nd half. Spent the 1st half outside with Caitlin. Came back inside for the 2nd half and spent my time with Katie. She asked me if i had kissed Caitlin any more than once; I said yes and she asked me if i was over her. I said, "in the sense that i don't want to go back out with you, yes. In the sense that it still greatly hurts me to hear about what you do with other guys, no"
So 5 minutes later she tells me about one of her little sexual "flings" with Chris Y. 5 fucking minutes after saying that. she apologises after i brought it up to her and after class she tries to turn everything around on me saying some shit that "You've done worse". Threw a bit of a fit. Broke my headphones. coundn't concentrate for the rest of the day. Texted her apologising for throwing a fit after soccer. she said alright.
I come home and say hey to her. she says hey then ignores me as usual. Says shes busy doing homework. She tells me not talk to her and informes me that she is in fact talking her heart out to Chris Y.
Why do i tourture myself so much?
Why do i hate myself so much?
I've got too many questions with no answers.
I hate how after everything i still hide my feelings.
I hate how i can't be myself.
I hate all of this.
I hate bitching like this, no one really cares to begin with.
Why do i bother?