Livejournal Therapy
Got alot of shit to dump here for my sanity's sake. Don't read it unless you want to feel beter about your work situation.
Fuck my new job.
I am ready to leave and if I could afford it, I would leave in a heartbeat.
$8 an hour under the table no benefits, fuck that. To give you an idea, I should be making 15+ with full benefits starting out.
My boss is good, its his wife I can't deal with.
She is nice and all, but when it comes down to being a boss, she has no fucking clue. She has no ideas how computers or printers work either so, when something goes wrong, oh its my fault.
I have no idea how to deal with her. She's ALWAYS right even when shes wrong and the worst part is she does the proofreading, so there is no way to sneak work by her.
Also, because she has no idea how computers work, she blames me for all the problems. She says oh well it never did that when paul does it, and I try to explain to her that im working with different files and I just waste my breath. I dont know why I bother. Yeah its my fault, I pushed the button that makes the computer freeze, you caught me, i did it. So it makes me look bad in her eyes because she has no idea what is going on.
She keeps screwing me out of portfolio pieces too. I'll have something designed beautifully and she'll come over, say it looks great, then 5 min later she demands that I change it... for the worse.
But she must know better than me having no design expierence and no education, I mean shit, I just got my BFA in design for fun right? Shit, that was just 4 years of partytime. What do I know about what looks good and what works? Espically for NIGHTCLUB FLIERS, because I never worked there before or anything like that. She tries to tell me that I have to make the prices huge, which makes it look tacky and not cool, and when I try to tell her that a club's image is everything and were not advertising for a fucking newspaper grocery store ad here. But she knows best. And it went out to print with those stupid huge prices. I ended up saying aww fuck it and I made this thing look as shitty as possible.
For $8 an hour, they dont deserve my good ideas, they can have the shit for all im concerned.
I don't know what I'm going to do, its like everything I design, she feels the need to take over and design it for me and I'm just there to work the computer because she is too damn stupid to do it herself.
And the worst part is my boss yells at her for doing it and tells me to do what I have. Then she will sneak over and whisper just fix what I said.
Its like she is convinced that she knows best, but she doesnt, Paul knows best, but I cant do that because his wife tells me to do other wise.
So I am going to do what she says and pray that she makes a crucial mistake so I can nail her ass to the wall, but of course, I know if that happens she'll turn it around and blame me for it, because she can NEVER be wrong.
I have no idea how to deal with her. Normally, Id just nod my head and then when their back is turned, I just do what I have to do to get the job done.
I have to say, the most satisfying part of my day is getting calls, they ask for paul, then I tell them he isnt there. I ask then if they want to talk to his wife. They pause. Then they kinda sigh and just say ahhhhhhhh, I'll just catch paul later or they ask for his cell. It's so good. It lets me know that other people know she doesnt have a clue and im not crazy and its not just me.
Today a customer came in and he saw me arguing with her. I went outside to get lunch right after and bumped into him and he sympathized with me.
My big problem is that when something prints out wrong, she gets on my ass, where as I am busy trying to think of a way to fix the problem, which would be alot easier if there wasnt somebody nagging me.
On the plus side, my other boss fro my other job says he has a contact at ESPN and I saw they were looking for designers, so maybe that might be a better start. He is also getting me a job working with a woman from New York. So either of those are gonna look great on my resume.
I just need to remember that starting off is hard.
I just dont have enough patience to deal with a computer that doesnt work right for no apparent reason, a boss that cant fix it, and his wife who tells me its my fault.
I cant confront her either because as mentioned before, she is never wrong, therefore making my say unvalid.
So i think my best bet is to confront my boss and not his wife. If I could work while she is not there, and have somebody else proof it or even proof it myself, things would be tolerable.
Fuck my new job.
I am ready to leave and if I could afford it, I would leave in a heartbeat.
$8 an hour under the table no benefits, fuck that. To give you an idea, I should be making 15+ with full benefits starting out.
My boss is good, its his wife I can't deal with.
She is nice and all, but when it comes down to being a boss, she has no fucking clue. She has no ideas how computers or printers work either so, when something goes wrong, oh its my fault.
I have no idea how to deal with her. She's ALWAYS right even when shes wrong and the worst part is she does the proofreading, so there is no way to sneak work by her.
Also, because she has no idea how computers work, she blames me for all the problems. She says oh well it never did that when paul does it, and I try to explain to her that im working with different files and I just waste my breath. I dont know why I bother. Yeah its my fault, I pushed the button that makes the computer freeze, you caught me, i did it. So it makes me look bad in her eyes because she has no idea what is going on.
She keeps screwing me out of portfolio pieces too. I'll have something designed beautifully and she'll come over, say it looks great, then 5 min later she demands that I change it... for the worse.
But she must know better than me having no design expierence and no education, I mean shit, I just got my BFA in design for fun right? Shit, that was just 4 years of partytime. What do I know about what looks good and what works? Espically for NIGHTCLUB FLIERS, because I never worked there before or anything like that. She tries to tell me that I have to make the prices huge, which makes it look tacky and not cool, and when I try to tell her that a club's image is everything and were not advertising for a fucking newspaper grocery store ad here. But she knows best. And it went out to print with those stupid huge prices. I ended up saying aww fuck it and I made this thing look as shitty as possible.
For $8 an hour, they dont deserve my good ideas, they can have the shit for all im concerned.
I don't know what I'm going to do, its like everything I design, she feels the need to take over and design it for me and I'm just there to work the computer because she is too damn stupid to do it herself.
And the worst part is my boss yells at her for doing it and tells me to do what I have. Then she will sneak over and whisper just fix what I said.
Its like she is convinced that she knows best, but she doesnt, Paul knows best, but I cant do that because his wife tells me to do other wise.
So I am going to do what she says and pray that she makes a crucial mistake so I can nail her ass to the wall, but of course, I know if that happens she'll turn it around and blame me for it, because she can NEVER be wrong.
I have no idea how to deal with her. Normally, Id just nod my head and then when their back is turned, I just do what I have to do to get the job done.
I have to say, the most satisfying part of my day is getting calls, they ask for paul, then I tell them he isnt there. I ask then if they want to talk to his wife. They pause. Then they kinda sigh and just say ahhhhhhhh, I'll just catch paul later or they ask for his cell. It's so good. It lets me know that other people know she doesnt have a clue and im not crazy and its not just me.
Today a customer came in and he saw me arguing with her. I went outside to get lunch right after and bumped into him and he sympathized with me.
My big problem is that when something prints out wrong, she gets on my ass, where as I am busy trying to think of a way to fix the problem, which would be alot easier if there wasnt somebody nagging me.
On the plus side, my other boss fro my other job says he has a contact at ESPN and I saw they were looking for designers, so maybe that might be a better start. He is also getting me a job working with a woman from New York. So either of those are gonna look great on my resume.
I just need to remember that starting off is hard.
I just dont have enough patience to deal with a computer that doesnt work right for no apparent reason, a boss that cant fix it, and his wife who tells me its my fault.
I cant confront her either because as mentioned before, she is never wrong, therefore making my say unvalid.
So i think my best bet is to confront my boss and not his wife. If I could work while she is not there, and have somebody else proof it or even proof it myself, things would be tolerable.