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i am having a horrible horrible case of senoritis. its terrible. and silvan is just kickin my ass in the whole bet area. I am working out hard and dieting, but damn he is kickin my butt. i just hope he realizes when i lose that i will be a complete traffic accident in a bikini and maybe he will take pity on my soul.
i seriously doubt it. he thinks i'm cute naked so its not like he is livin in reality. sigh.
the senoritus... i just can't get motivated for some things. i have this complete mental blockage for the design report becaus i loathe one of the team members with all my heart and soul. and his daughter is my co-writer. gah. i called her today and we will work on it! and it will be good! and i won't kill doc dead!!
i feel like a depressed waste of space right now. my life seems way out of control. so many things to worry about i just can't seem to get a lock on any of them. tomorrow. tomorrow i will get tough and get going. tonight... i will be pathetic and get OVER this funk already. god.
i seriously doubt it. he thinks i'm cute naked so its not like he is livin in reality. sigh.
the senoritus... i just can't get motivated for some things. i have this complete mental blockage for the design report becaus i loathe one of the team members with all my heart and soul. and his daughter is my co-writer. gah. i called her today and we will work on it! and it will be good! and i won't kill doc dead!!
i feel like a depressed waste of space right now. my life seems way out of control. so many things to worry about i just can't seem to get a lock on any of them. tomorrow. tomorrow i will get tough and get going. tonight... i will be pathetic and get OVER this funk already. god.