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So today I got up and went to church. I got really stressed out driving home from church because of my parents arguing with each other about what I'm supposed to do pulling out of the parking space. Turns out when I ignore them I'm just fine. Anyways that was a problem because stress and depression cause the increase of something...sorry I forget what that can increase stomach and lower body fat. Maybe the depression is why I'm so ill proportioned. Anyways so I'm trying really hard to be happy and make sure I do things to remain stress-free...almost.
Anyways after church I ate half of the left over mac n cheese we made which is not too much...a little less then a small bowl full. Then I had a small apple. But I figure it is ok because then we went to the Gym and I swam laps for an hour and sat in the sauna for about 20 minutes. A guy I knew was lifeguarding and he kept looking at me and I felt so extremely obese it's not even funny! I really am so tempted to eat the rest of the mac n cheese but I know I can't if I want to be thin. I figure I will have a normal dinner because we always have to have dinner as a family..."because families that don't tend to have more problems"...I doubt that but whatever. Anyways we are having turkey and pilaf. So I figure I will have a small plate of that and I'll be good. I'm just fillin up on tea for the moment. I'm really happy I only have to have a 2 day period this month. Which I totally deserve because yestarday night I seriously was so sick I felt like I was going to die. Ok I'm going to go get more tea!
Anyways after church I ate half of the left over mac n cheese we made which is not too much...a little less then a small bowl full. Then I had a small apple. But I figure it is ok because then we went to the Gym and I swam laps for an hour and sat in the sauna for about 20 minutes. A guy I knew was lifeguarding and he kept looking at me and I felt so extremely obese it's not even funny! I really am so tempted to eat the rest of the mac n cheese but I know I can't if I want to be thin. I figure I will have a normal dinner because we always have to have dinner as a family..."because families that don't tend to have more problems"...I doubt that but whatever. Anyways we are having turkey and pilaf. So I figure I will have a small plate of that and I'll be good. I'm just fillin up on tea for the moment. I'm really happy I only have to have a 2 day period this month. Which I totally deserve because yestarday night I seriously was so sick I felt like I was going to die. Ok I'm going to go get more tea!