...y do i even bother...

[shadowedsoul18]

ugh so ive been all like bitchy and depressed lately and i really dont kno what is wrong with me. its crazy. i dont mean to be all mean and bitchy to ppl....i jus kinda am for sum reason. i think its jus cuz alots going on rite now adn like i guess im jus not myself lately. ugh and i dont like that one bit. but w/e. and freakin it sucks that jeffs not around nemore it jus makes my life depressing and boring. and it also sucks that i have no one in my life. it jus makes my life even more sad and depressing cuz im pathetic like that. ugh i hate my life and ppl hate me. works out nice :(. hmm work is starting to suck cuz like i can never do nethin liek dealing with school. for instance this week....i cant go to the parade cuz i have to work....now i cant go to the homecoming game cuz i now have to work cuz apparenly i got switched from saturday nites to friday nites and it sucks. its like thats y i quit my other job cuz i couldnt do nething. ugh its like the only nite i dont have to work is freaking the nite of the dance and thats retarded cuz i wouldnt even ever go to that neways cuz theres no reason for me to. theres jus...nothing. idk. depressing like i kinda wanna go but its pointless cuz im jus pointless. ugh. so yah thats my life right now and freakin ugh idk. and i cant stand that i always fall for ppl i can never have. its like freakin annoying as all hell. ugh

ok im done bitching now...