Goodbyes that never happened....
So...thanks to Johnny and Lori. They came over when I needed them...even though I told them that I didn't. Somehow, they knew that even though I said I didn't want or need them, I really did...so thanks for that tonight guys...I love you both for it...you've helped me out more than you probably realize.
See, what it was earlier was the feeling of being left behind and alone...and that's the worst feeling in the world. To feel as if you have no one out there for you. At one point, I sat on my bed with the sheets over my head and was bawling my eyes out.
Not to say that I'm completely better---I'm not. In ways, yes, I feel less alone, and I know that there are people out there for me, as I'm there for them.
The rest that's wrong...I need to work out on my own. It has nothing to do with certain people or anything like that...it's more of a perception and certain aspects of my life. Random growing up, I guess. That, and I need to do something about my life. I went from being a lazy teen to being someone with a lot of responsibility. I haven't handled the transistion well, so I need to work on that, as well.
Thank you all for the patience...
I'm off to contemplate some more...haha
See, what it was earlier was the feeling of being left behind and alone...and that's the worst feeling in the world. To feel as if you have no one out there for you. At one point, I sat on my bed with the sheets over my head and was bawling my eyes out.
Not to say that I'm completely better---I'm not. In ways, yes, I feel less alone, and I know that there are people out there for me, as I'm there for them.
The rest that's wrong...I need to work out on my own. It has nothing to do with certain people or anything like that...it's more of a perception and certain aspects of my life. Random growing up, I guess. That, and I need to do something about my life. I went from being a lazy teen to being someone with a lot of responsibility. I haven't handled the transistion well, so I need to work on that, as well.
Thank you all for the patience...
I'm off to contemplate some more...haha