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I haven't posted in years and this probably won't make sense.
I don't understand how some days I can feel empowered and in control of my life and other days I feel worthless because of how other people treat me. From an outside perspective of my own situation, I'd say to myself "Just cut those people out of your life." It's easy to say, but that doesn't account for what I'd have to go trough to do it. I'd have to go through the dreaded "conversation", move out, lose some independence and privacy, lose stability, lose routine (which is essential for anyone who feels uneasy and anxious often). It just seems like it would be easier to stay than leave. Which is such a shit excuse. My reasoning is that I can detach myself a bit, work on my fitness, study for my exam, and just work on myself as much as possible until my lease is over in May.
I don't understand how some days I can feel empowered and in control of my life and other days I feel worthless because of how other people treat me. From an outside perspective of my own situation, I'd say to myself "Just cut those people out of your life." It's easy to say, but that doesn't account for what I'd have to go trough to do it. I'd have to go through the dreaded "conversation", move out, lose some independence and privacy, lose stability, lose routine (which is essential for anyone who feels uneasy and anxious often). It just seems like it would be easier to stay than leave. Which is such a shit excuse. My reasoning is that I can detach myself a bit, work on my fitness, study for my exam, and just work on myself as much as possible until my lease is over in May.