Comments | shadowchilde: Being Happy with Who I am... has taken a little turn.

shadowchilde

Being Happy with Who I am... has taken a little turn.

May 14, 2009 00:30

Things have been pretty hard. Well, maybe it is better to say that I have been very hard on myself. Mostly because of everything that I’ve gone through and it probably doesn’t help that in the past year, I feel that I’ve actually gotten older… looking. I used to be mistaken for someone 10 to 15 years younger. Now, I think that I’m actually ( Read more... )

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Patience and Time selenajade May 14 2009, 12:16:47 UTC

You have been through hell.....and so, its going to take time....a lot of time, and I think you should not be so hard on yourself for not being very motivated. All this past fall and winter, I've felt that "push" from inside telling me to get off my ass and do something....but yet, my body and my heart were telling me "dont be in such a hurry".....I think you will know when you are ready to go 100 percent again. And maybe YOUR 100 percent won't be like your old one, y'know what I mean? Cancer takes its toll, it demands so much....you need to rest and especially rest your mind and spirit.

I love you!

SJ

Re: Patience and Time shadowchilde May 14 2009, 13:38:48 UTC

You have a point, but I have been resting. I can get very used to this resting and basically... there is one other thing that Cancer does for you. It makes you push because you know how precious the time you have is. You don't like wasting it. and I know the word waste is subjective. I just want to get some things done and make things work. That's all.

I feel like I've lost so much in the past year. But hopefully that is just a feeling that I have to work through and not a statement of reality.

Blessings...

Daily Rite selenajade May 14 2009, 12:19:30 UTC

I bet re-dedicating your self to a daily visit with the Ntrw would be helpful. Even just to go there and tell them how tired you are, and ask for their help, sweetie. Maybe you could do it right before bedtime? Like we used to do. I'd even do it with you if you want.

XOXOX

SJ

Re: Daily Rite shadowchilde May 14 2009, 13:41:24 UTC

Wow... this would be fantastic. Yes, I do think that doing the Daily Rite and re-dedicating myself. Not to mention if we could work again on developing our Kemetic Wiccan Tradition would help also.

How are you feeling about working on this also, sweetie?

Re: Daily Rite selenajade May 14 2009, 16:53:20 UTC

I would love to begin working on this...its been percolating in my mind for so long.

And I'd be happy to meet you online, remember when we did it was usually about 9PM? But I dont really have a set schedule so it could be in the morning now if you wish.

Sounds like we need to have a phone call. *grins*

Re: Daily Rite shadowchilde May 14 2009, 17:20:21 UTC

Yeah... I think that a phone call would be really grand. I can call you, just name the time and I will call.

I miss you so much, sweetie. I wish that you could come down here for the month of July... I will be alone... AefA will be away to see her mom and CarnelianStar will be away at NTC getting ready for his next deployment.