I'm done explaining myself
I shouldn't have to explain myself to people who should have known wtf I'm about all this fucking time. All people ever fucking cared about was themselves when it came to me. They ASSUMED I was fine and never fucking cared, good fucking riddance.
Like I try to apologize and if the person wants to keep on bitching and not see my side of things well then fine, label me a goddamned narcissist because I no longer fucking care. Like a genocide that is STILL taking place, do you want to know wtf people were doing to me after October 7th? They were sending me reels on IG as if NOTHING was happening! All the shit I was seeing online and they were in their own fucking bubbles acting like they didn't have a fucking care in the world. Like they didn't fucking care about how *I* was feeling because if they did they wouldn't have did that shit. They wouldn't have tried to make me feel better using such trivial fucking means and hiding their heads in the sand. They would have did like my other autistic friend did and talked to me about the horrors we see. They would have shown solidarity in the face of this fucking nightmare, not sent reels to try to get a cheap fucking laugh out of me for five minutes. That shit WASN'T helping and it was never going to fucking help.
Of course I fucking got angry. Of fucking COURSE I was livid at how people weren't doing their due fucking diligence. At the very least if you cannot stop the injustice TALK ABOUT IT. Not look away and act like it isn't fucking happening.
I'm not perfect in how I handled shit but I know damn well WHY I handled it the way I did and FUCK everyone who wants to pretend like they don't fucking understand where I'm coming from. I don't fucking care about their feelings like they can just fuck off.
Like I try to apologize and if the person wants to keep on bitching and not see my side of things well then fine, label me a goddamned narcissist because I no longer fucking care. Like a genocide that is STILL taking place, do you want to know wtf people were doing to me after October 7th? They were sending me reels on IG as if NOTHING was happening! All the shit I was seeing online and they were in their own fucking bubbles acting like they didn't have a fucking care in the world. Like they didn't fucking care about how *I* was feeling because if they did they wouldn't have did that shit. They wouldn't have tried to make me feel better using such trivial fucking means and hiding their heads in the sand. They would have did like my other autistic friend did and talked to me about the horrors we see. They would have shown solidarity in the face of this fucking nightmare, not sent reels to try to get a cheap fucking laugh out of me for five minutes. That shit WASN'T helping and it was never going to fucking help.
Of course I fucking got angry. Of fucking COURSE I was livid at how people weren't doing their due fucking diligence. At the very least if you cannot stop the injustice TALK ABOUT IT. Not look away and act like it isn't fucking happening.
I'm not perfect in how I handled shit but I know damn well WHY I handled it the way I did and FUCK everyone who wants to pretend like they don't fucking understand where I'm coming from. I don't fucking care about their feelings like they can just fuck off.