Jun 06, 2004 02:46
Whoa, what a crazy ride. I'm in Illinois. I just got back from Florida with Ginny. Super fun. Before that I was living in London with random people. Super fun there as well. I currently reside in my Aunt's spare room with my stuff in bags and piles, spred out over a span of 2-3 houses in this state and Kentucky. I will not be returning to Kentucky to live. Nor will I be attending Eastern anymore. Ugh. I don't even care, that school was never right for me. I talked to an amazing friend tonight for hours. Her name is Tiffany Giles, and she was there for me, on the phone, or hanging out, every damn day last summer. We were inseparable, but in college we didn't have time to talk as much. She and I discussed my desire to move to california, and how she too, shares this desire. She isn't like me, she doesn't have a plan, but she wants to go. She is someone who always has a plan. She is extremely organized, and prepared for everything. This is a spontaneous move on her part, and that makes it half as intriging for her, and no one else believes she will actually do it. I am never organized or prepared like her, obviously.. it was extremely bold to just up and decide to quit trying to finish college, and just move out west. I'm going to work all this year, save up money.. and with or without anyone ... I'm going to move to southern california and start my life. I'm sick of waiting, one attachment after the other. I have none now, and I intend to keep it that way. Jason wants me to stay. Too bad. Mom wants me to stay. Too bad. Aileen, Nathan, and Kandess know that I will stay in contact, and they plan to visit. So does Ginny. Tiffany wants to come with me and that is more awesome that anything. Robert will end up in California with his parents, who will be living in Ridgecrest. I have the support of my father, and mom will eventually accept it. I'm not at all afraid. It's something I've been wanting to do for as long as I can remember. To pursue my dream, to just drop everything and go, to just go where the wind takes me is everything to me. I'm ready. All I'm waiting on now is money. Maybe a new car, but that won't stop me. I just want to have enough money to not be broke after one rent payment. Anyway, this kid is tired. Any further questions... forward them to my email address. I will be glad to anwser. Oh and since I've been out of the dorm I have not been sad ONCE! Fuck college. I'm an artist. I'm a creator. I need to be free! I'm way happier out. I'm ready to move west and surf every day. Oh yeah, one more thing. I'm probably going to work at Hollister & Co. this summer. YAY!