well then
hmm. i look for deep meaning where there may be just emptiness. I dont know what to look for untill i remember myself and breathe. sometimes that doesnt seem like enough but i know it is more than i understand.
balance is my goal of the moment but it is so hard to balance the world when i look at it all at once. perhaps i can help. but often i dont even know anymore.
I saw eliot today for the first time in over a year and i saw him yesterday aswell (sleepover status). It was fun but unsettling as well. We can have so much fun even though we are so different. But i enjoy friends and there is no lieing about this one.
i'll go to sleep soon and i will stop being paranoid and unsettled soon aswell.
balance is my goal of the moment but it is so hard to balance the world when i look at it all at once. perhaps i can help. but often i dont even know anymore.
I saw eliot today for the first time in over a year and i saw him yesterday aswell (sleepover status). It was fun but unsettling as well. We can have so much fun even though we are so different. But i enjoy friends and there is no lieing about this one.
i'll go to sleep soon and i will stop being paranoid and unsettled soon aswell.